Venting I’m going to break apart.

[itsmeagain]

I wasn't meant to deal with so much pressure trying to get better. My recovery was all about trying to get better to do something. The older you get the less time you have to recover when bad things happen.

I was never given the time I needed to recover. I'm breaking apart at the moment I needed to be strong.

I'm breaking. I'm breaking, I'm breaking, I'm breaking. Why are there no miracles for people like me to fix the pain, the same, the ache, the twisting throbbing ache.

Make it stop.

 

[Odwin]

You still here and I would consider that a miracle

 

[itsmeagain]

You still here and I would consider that a miracle

Thank you, bucket of chicken… hahah. That is a miracle, even if not a very happy one. Thank you.

 

[Moroze]

Hey, I'm so sorry. No human should experience the sensation of breaking. Personally, I tried to recover, but it seems like I'm betraying myself big time. Now that I think of me trying to recover in the past I imagine a naive idiot in my mind. I've been that naive idiot.

 

[iwanttobedead]

Thank you, bucket of chicken… hahah. That is a miracle, even if not a very happy one. Thank you.

hey it's not every day u get compliments from a bucket of chicken :3

 

[Pale_Rider]

The miracle is when you move heaven, and hell on your own. Just the way it is. Dont be surprised if nobody notices.

 

[itsmeagain]

Hey, I'm so sorry. No human should experience the sensation of breaking. Personally, I tried to recover, but it seems like I'm betraying myself big time. Now that I think of me trying to recover in the past I imagine a naive idiot in my mind. I've been that naive idiot.

Betrayal… THATS the word. It makes me feel betrayed to try and help myself. The world keeps twisting the knife but I'm just laughing and bleeding wondering why I didn't just take it out and end myself with it.

Thank you for helping me find the words, dear

The miracle is when you move heaven, and hell on your own. Just the way it is. Dont be surprised if nobody notices.

I never am. Nobody notices, if only I loved myself enough to feel like it wasn't the bare minimum…? Thank you for your wonderful thought.

hey it's not every day u get compliments from a bucket of chicken :3

Then I'll take this compliment to-go hahah