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shego1217
Member
- May 15, 2024
- 11
I'm just completely exhausted by this life. I'm fat, have chronic health conditions (depression, anxiety, migraines, and MS), am socially awkward (so much so that I've never had a BF at my big age, lost the only person who was there for me (my really young single mom last year), am bad at my crappy job, have about 1.5 friends, and don't even know how to drive or a lot of things adults have to do. The sad thing is that there's probably more about myself and my circumstances that I hate. I really want to go but I only have access to stuff that probably won't work. I'm tired of wishing I'd just somehow die suddenly or be killed. I keep looking into euthanasia in foreign countries since the US is ughhh. Feels like I'm stuck here to be miserable, in pain, and alone. No one cares and that's just life. I should have just done it years ago when SN was readily available. It's probably a pipe dream but I'd like to go peacefully. Life has already been too chaotic. I've done a will, wrote a note, even planned obituary/service details, but I'm too stupid to get a gun or find SN with these restrictions. Just venting but life - ain't it a peach.