Im dying in my home with dignity, but I need to make this easier for my partner

[thankyou]

I've already Swedish death cleaned my apartment of my belongings. Next I need to make donations.

I've dreamed of dying in my comfy bed. Nothing in my life is more expensive than my bed, I invested so much into it and it's so comfy I rarely leave it. But I live with my partner and I also didn't want to die in their space. So I settled on a hotel.

But I take that back. I die in my home. Im so sorry to my partner. It was my home first. I lived my entire life doing everything for others and I decided I draw the line at my death. I am going to be throwing their things into storage or at least into the living room while barricading my bedroom off, during a weekend that they will be away with family.

I hate having to do this to my partner. Just kill me already. But I'm so sorry it came to this after a loving person finally came into my life. Im sorry but they came too late I guess. Nearly 30 years with only hate & abuse while being disabled, they couldn't save me.

Gosh what can I do to make this better for my partner? I know it's best for them but there's just nothing I can do to make them understand. I hate watching their light fade as they become closer to me, I'm a nuisance.

 

[warriorofeld]

I've already Swedish death cleaned my apartment of my belongings. Next I need to make donations.

I've dreamed of dying in my comfy bed. Nothing in my life is more expensive than my bed, I invested so much into it and it's so comfy I rarely leave it. But I live with my partner and I also didn't want to die in their space. So I settled on a hotel.

But I take that back. I die in my home. Im so sorry to my partner. It was my home first. I lived my entire life doing everything for others and I decided I draw the line at my death. I am going to be throwing their things into storage or at least into the living room while barricading my bedroom off, during a weekend that they will be away with family.

I hate having to do this to my partner. Just kill me already. But I'm so sorry it came to this after a loving person finally came into my life. Im sorry but they came too late I guess. Nearly 30 years with only hate & abuse while being disabled, they couldn't save me.

Gosh what can I do to make this better for my partner? I know it's best for them but there's just nothing I can do to make them understand. I hate watching their light fade as they become closer to me, I'm a nuisance.

I don't wanna die in the house either but I have little options left

 

[MidnightCat]

First of all.

I'm sorry for what's happening to you.

Second, as someone who's alive FOR it's partner... Don't do it at home. Don't do that to the person you truly appreciate.

Remember that sadness does not fade away when we catch the bus. It spreads to those who where around.

It'll be pretty difficult for your partner when you die. It'll be even worse if you make it at home.

That said... Your life, your rules.

 

[thankyou]

First of all.

I'm sorry for what's happening to you.

Second, as someone who's alive FOR it's partner... Don't do it at home. Don't do that to the person you truly appreciate.

Remember that sadness does not fade away when we catch the bus. It spreads to those who where around.

It'll be pretty difficult for your partner when you die. It'll be even worse if you make it at home.

That said... Your life, your rules.

Very good point, it does spread the sadness around but luckily I don't have anybody else to worry about. I think my partner would move out regardless. It's not an owned home, we're renting. but I see your point.

 

[SexyIncél]

Write something beautiful about your partner, how they almost saved you. Talk them up, as if they'll tearfully read it out loud to someone who'll fall hard in love with them

I know this sounds crazy, but the crazy train already left the station. Maybe my idea's bad, I don't know