
Ash’Girl
Girl, Interrupted
- Apr 29, 2022
- 386
It doesn't get easier, not when it's someone intrinsically entangled with everything that ever made you happy. At least this is my experience. I always had thoughts of ctb before he found me, when he did for the first time I felt I was truly living. Now the thoughts are back in force because like the OP, I know, I will never find what I found in him in another. I wouldn't want to anyway, and I'm grateful to have actually experienced that even for a short time. But for me it's like there is nothing else left to experience, at least nothing positive. So I'm trying to figure out how to take that final step, because existing here without him is just too painful. There have been many struggles and many difficult times in my life, but this - grieving for my person - I think it's harder than all past MH battles combined.I hope to be with mine also--The longer she's gone I more I miss her
I hope you find peace, whatever path you choose.