Nitlott
"Wowee!"
- Feb 17, 2026
- 36
Once again, no problems with communicating with people, easily start conversations with new people if I'm interested in them. I was confused at some point who you call a friend, a best friend and etc. Now's everyone my friend, makes things easier. I don't like when people overcomplicate and make sense of everything although sometimes guilty of it.
Every time I see a video of people I know hanging out or, if I'm already down, just people in the streets I get this weird feeling of not being a normal friend to people. I'm a shitty one, actually, if to be a judge. My "best friend" is the type of friend with whom both of you talk only at school/events. Like a service-friend, although not as bad as it sounds. She'd definitely disagree with me if heard something like that. I also tend to underestimate how that person feels towards me, when a thing pointing it out happens I just sit there zoning out.
I get sort of "invitations" to hang out relatively often, for me at least. Not necessarily the "planned from home" ones, I count opportunities to go somewhere after already attending something too. Some I accepted. Don't know how I feel about them. The only person who goes out of their way to ask me to hang out all the year is my other friend but it's complicated. Used to see me as a love interest some years ago and still does to some extent, so... Sitting at the movies with him and me dissociating the whole time is definitely not something either of us would want.
I don't smoke nor drink so throw all applicable to it social occasions and events out the window. I get how to act with certain people to bond with them but I don't feel like doing it. No point. Why fake something if that "fakeness" is the reason you feel bad?
I understand that all people come and go. Most of people I talk to now won't be in my life the next years. Plus it's not the time when I should be developing strong friendship bonds anyway.
I believe that attachment to people is one of the main reasons we suffer to be honest. Don't know why I wrote it, was on my mind for years. Feeling a little gloomy and downcast either way
Every time I see a video of people I know hanging out or, if I'm already down, just people in the streets I get this weird feeling of not being a normal friend to people. I'm a shitty one, actually, if to be a judge. My "best friend" is the type of friend with whom both of you talk only at school/events. Like a service-friend, although not as bad as it sounds. She'd definitely disagree with me if heard something like that. I also tend to underestimate how that person feels towards me, when a thing pointing it out happens I just sit there zoning out.
I get sort of "invitations" to hang out relatively often, for me at least. Not necessarily the "planned from home" ones, I count opportunities to go somewhere after already attending something too. Some I accepted. Don't know how I feel about them. The only person who goes out of their way to ask me to hang out all the year is my other friend but it's complicated. Used to see me as a love interest some years ago and still does to some extent, so... Sitting at the movies with him and me dissociating the whole time is definitely not something either of us would want.
I don't smoke nor drink so throw all applicable to it social occasions and events out the window. I get how to act with certain people to bond with them but I don't feel like doing it. No point. Why fake something if that "fakeness" is the reason you feel bad?
I understand that all people come and go. Most of people I talk to now won't be in my life the next years. Plus it's not the time when I should be developing strong friendship bonds anyway.
I believe that attachment to people is one of the main reasons we suffer to be honest. Don't know why I wrote it, was on my mind for years. Feeling a little gloomy and downcast either way
