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rotting

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Aug 23, 2024
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help!!!!!!
im being hospitalized right now because of suicidal ideation and I dont have many to talk, i just want company and i feel so lonely
help!!!!!!
im being hospitalized right now because of suicidal ideation and I dont have many to talk, i just want company and i feel so lonely
its also very very cold at the hospital and its winter here
 
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unluckysadness

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Jul 9, 2025
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I don't know what to say so I send you hugs 💖 I hope that doctors and nurses will be kind with you. SaSu family is here for you 🙏
 
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rotting

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Aug 23, 2024
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Wait, how did this happen?
I went to my regular appointment at the psychiatrist hospital i usually come, but they identified that I was under severe risk of suicide if unwatched by nurses n doctors...
I don't know what to say so I send you hugs 💖 I hope that doctors and nurses will be kind with you. SaSu family is here for you 🙏
thank u so much this words means so much for me, really. thank u for dedicating a couple of minutes to reply me <3
 
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darksoul999

darksoul999

A Free Spirit Trapped In a Cruel World
Aug 23, 2026
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damn that sucks.. i remember my first time in 2022... I was drug out of the bathroom by the police and handcuffed like a criminal.
 
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SASU-KE

⇡My dog⇡intercepts my SN package so I'm still here
Nov 26, 2025
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I went to my regular appointment at the psychiatrist hospital i usually come, but they identified that I was under severe risk of suicide if unwatched by nurses n doctors...
How did they identify it?
 
darksoul999

darksoul999

A Free Spirit Trapped In a Cruel World
Aug 23, 2026
129
fuck... it must been horrible. Im sorry it happed that way
Was not fun... People with mental health issues are treated like animals. its sad.
 
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rotting

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How did they identify it?
i kinda dont wanna say so people dont use this as a method and not being honest with their doctors. but i was pretty opened about how i had said goodbye to everyone in a silent way and they know i've attemped with SN before
 
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SyrupWaffles

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Jul 14, 2026
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That sucks, I'm sorry to hear that. I think they are obligated to keep you if they think you're a risk to yourself. But being in there is no fun. I hope it doesn't last too long, you'll get through it.
 
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babyneo1

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Apr 23, 2026
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i kinda dont wanna say so people dont use this as a method and not being honest with their doctors. but i was pretty opened about how i had said goodbye to everyone in a silent way and they know i've attemped with SN before
You tried CTB with SN?
 
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rotting

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Aug 23, 2024
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That sucks, I'm sorry to hear that. I think they are obligated to keep you if they think you're a risk to yourself. But being in there is no fun. I hope it doesn't last too long, you'll get through it.
thank u so much. also hope that!
You tried CTB with SN?
Not this time.
Once i prepared the SN drink and leaved by my side but feel asleep because of xanax, my boyfriend figured it out and took away from me. The doctors know that, so they know i have knowledge and acess to SN at any moment and can buy at anytime i want.
 
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Graveyardly

Waiting to become one with nothing
Sep 7, 2026
59
Big love for you and hopes. If you haven't given up on everything yet the psych ward might help you.

I'm on a waiting list to go there voluntarily so it's not all that bad, just hope you have good carers
 
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thank u so much. also hope that!

Not this time.
Once i prepared the SN drink and leaved by my side but feel asleep because of xanax, my boyfriend figured it out and took away from me. The doctors know that, so they know i have knowledge and acess to SN at any moment and can buy at anytime i want.
I was hospitalized for 4 weeks, was difficult at first. If you got questions let me know
 
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Big love for you and hopes. If you haven't given up on everything yet the psych ward might help you.

I'm on a waiting list to go there voluntarily so it's not all that bad, just hope you have good carers
I truly believe it can help for someone who is in the middle of a crisis and save their lifes. Not me tho, i dont feel like I'm in a crisis, at least dont believe that
I was hospitalized for 4 weeks, was difficult at first. If you got questions let me know
i dont want to go. im so scared but they can obligate me to go apparently
 
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Graveyardly

Waiting to become one with nothing
Sep 7, 2026
59
I think it helps in crisis but can also help in normal times. I'm technically very suicidal, think about it all the time and have a way. But I communicate with my carers to make them understand my distress, and hopefully they can help.

So a psych ward can be a place where everyone focuses on how to make you better, it can be positive like that !
 
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rotting

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Aug 23, 2024
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I think it helps in crisis but can also help in normal times. I'm technically very suicidal, think about it all the time and have a way. But I communicate with my carers to make them understand my distress, and hopefully they can help.

So a psych ward can be a place where everyone focuses on how to make you better, it can be positive like that !
i hope you're right and hope you get the treatment you deserve. <3
being suicidal is a terrible and miserable life experience i dont wish to anyone.
 
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babyneo1

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Apr 23, 2026
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I truly believe it can help for someone who is in the middle of a crisis and save their lifes. Not me tho, i dont feel like I'm in a crisis, at least dont believe that

i dont want to go. im so scared but they can obligate me to go apparently
Yes, in my country it's the law if I wish harm someone or yourself you are forced to be hospitalized
I think it helps in crisis but can also help in normal times. I'm technically very suicidal, think about it all the time and have a way. But I communicate with my carers to make them understand my distress, and hopefully they can help.

So a psych ward can be a place where everyone focuses on how to make you better, it can be positive like that !
I'm glad you are finding positive about going to ward
 
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Somewhat Suicidal

surviving anhedonia ≠ living
Aug 26, 2026
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good luck to both of you.
im going voluntarily to the local hospital open ward in 2 or 3 weeks as well, still waiting. probably gonna transfer directly to a more specialised clinic afterwards.
 
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Cauliflour

I am the doodler, all praise MS Paint!
Mar 24, 2025
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I went to my regular appointment at the psychiatrist hospital i usually come, but they identified that I was under severe risk of suicide if unwatched by nurses n doctors...
God that would be terrifying, going to therapy, not knowing if you would even get to go home that day if you said something slightly abnormal. Suppose that's another thing to fuel my fear of therapists...

That being said, if they see this website on your phone via search history, then would that make your stay longer due to "more evidence"?
 

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