Venting I'm back

[lamy's sacred sleep]

A part of me knew that I'd be back here.
I always regret not having died sooner, why would this time be any fucking different!

I messed up. I made too many mistakes and now they want nothing to do with me.
Even when I was optimistic about the future I still knew that being pro life is wrong.
I just want to die because

• Loving others hurts too much
• I cant love myself
• work is meaningless
• my suffering means nothing
• trying to live means and acheives nothing
• life is so so so fickle
• It all comes back to money

soon the bus will come. I'll make sure of it.

 

[FuneralCry]

I really understand just wanting to be free from all the suffering, it's so cruel to me how there's all this suffering in existing. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[lamy's sacred sleep]

I really understand just wanting to be free from all the suffering, it's so cruel to me how there's all this suffering in existing. But anyway I wish you the best.

thank you.