Yuki K
Student
- Mar 9, 2023
- 122
I'm back after a long time. My life has been going pretty well these few months like I've been studying harder, working out more often and even doing my side hustle well so I thought my life is all better now. But then I was hit with the stark reality and the reason I wanted to ctb in the first place. It's because of my being trans. People irl still treat me like a girl and I hate it but I pretend nothing's wrong with that and that makes me feel more pathetic and suicidal. I'm stealth in front of some people and i like spending time with them the most because they treat me like a guy and don't know that i'm biologically female. I'm not gonna undergo any surgeries because i know no matter how many surgeries i undergo, i will never be a man so i will just ctb instead. It makes me wonder is doing all these "productive" shit like studying, working and working out even worth it if i'm just gonna ctb in the end?
