I'm back. It doesn't get better despite how it looks.

[TheWorstLife]

I hate this world.

You may ask, why?

Allow me to tell you what has happened in between my last post and this.

I'm employed, but my father had to die for it. It happened right after he passed away.

This job sucks, I suck at it, I feel like I barely do anything, I might be underpaid. (especially coming up this friday if I don't get a bigger cheque)

I got caught smoking my dab pen indoors. I can't smoke anymore which will make my time off work miserable too. My life is miserable.

I still have all that old trauma kept, just rotting me away. I feel like an awful person. I don't feel comfortable in my own skin.

I hate my life, I just want out of it, without people being sad or mad. I don't care how they feel anymore. Nobody cares how anyone truly feels, just in the moment.

At least I have money to spend. On uhh.. Nothing. I don't do anything sober. I do everything high. I'll just spend it on a way to die or work stuff.

I am a robot. I'm losing my interests. Everything. I need to be ripped apart violently by a speeding transport truck.