I'm back bitches and I wanna die more than ever

[PrettyKitty]

I haven't been on this site for a month trying to heal and feel better I haven't cut or tried to take my own life for one whole month which is like world record. Recently something horrible happened that was not only against the religion I'm trying my hardest to be dedicated too but it hurt me so bad that i feel over whelming regret and guilt that eats me up inside. I really wanna die but also want to try and move on but I cant what should I do or should I just resort to death?

 

[goneStar]

you cant really outsource that decision, the question of whether or not you should commit suicide is up to you.
however, imho, religion is complete and utter ass anyway so if i were you i wouldnt stress that.

 

[squirley]

Maybe try the recovery section. :)

 

[Bigsmoke777]

I'm not religious but I think most religion preaches forgiveness and stuff, so the whole We all fuck up thing idk. Maybe you could try to use the religion to forgive yourself for your sins or whatever?

 

[Forever Sleep]

I'm not religious but I think most religion preaches forgiveness and stuff, so the whole We all fuck up thing idk. Maybe you could try to use the religion to forgive yourself for your sins or whatever?

Yeah- not that I am all that religious but from what I understand- most religions allow for some sin- so long as you TRULY repent- and obviously do your best not to do it again.

I guess it's up to you at the end of the day. What do you think your God wants of you? Presumably they WANT you to feel guilty I suppose- so- at least you're having the right reaction. I suppose guilt is partly how we atone for our mistakes. Is there anything else you can do practically to make ammends for whatever it was?

Does your religion allow for confidential confession? Perhaps you'd feel better if you got it off your chest to someone- especially someone learned in your faith.

As for CTB- like everyone else says- that has to be your decision. I'm sorry this has happened to you but it really has to be up to you- where you go from now.

 

[90starve]

I haven't been on this site for a month trying to heal and feel better I haven't cut or tried to take my own life for one whole month which is like world record. Recently something horrible happened that was not only against the religion I'm trying my hardest to be dedicated too but it hurt me so bad that i feel over whelming regret and guilt that eats me up inside. I really wanna die but also want to try and move on but I cant what should I do or should I just resort to death?

im sorry that you've hit a roadblock in your recovery - it happens to everyone. i think that suicide is your decision alone. whatever you decide to do, recovery or not, i wish you peace and freedom from your suffering <3

 

[MusicGuy]

I haven't been on this site for a month trying to heal and feel better I haven't cut or tried to take my own life for one whole month which is like world record. Recently something horrible happened that was not only against the religion I'm trying my hardest to be dedicated too but it hurt me so bad that i feel over whelming regret and guilt that eats me up inside. I really wanna die but also want to try and move on but I cant what should I do or should I just resort to death?

I wish there was an answer, but it's really up to you, every person is different, and what may be the best for other people, may not be the best for you. Whatever you choose, I hope you find the peace you deserve

 

[PrettyKitty]

Yeah- not that I am all that religious but from what I understand- most religions allow for some sin- so long as you TRULY repent- and obviously do your best not to do it again.

I guess it's up to you at the end of the day. What do you think your God wants of you? Presumably they WANT you to feel guilty I suppose- so- at least you're having the right reaction. I suppose guilt is partly how we atone for our mistakes. Is there anything else you can do practically to make ammends for whatever it was?

I'm not religious but I think most religion preaches forgiveness and stuff, so the whole We all fuck up thing idk. Maybe you could try to use the religion to forgive yourself for your sins or whatever?

Does your religion allow for confidential confession? Perhaps you'd feel better if you got it off your chest to someone- especially someone learned in your faith.

As for CTB- like everyone else says- that has to be your decision. I'm sorry this has happened to you but it really has to be up to you- where you go from now.

you are both right and my religion does include forgiveness as long as a repent but thats not the problem here its the crippling regret and guilt i feel and that makes me wanna just end it all, but in my religion as well suicide is a huge sin and will make you go to hell automatically.

 

[BloomingStrella]

It's sad to hear you're so conflicted on this decision. If you are a devotee and strongly believe you shouldn't do it, maybe try one last time to heal; although I know that it's very tiring to try to better yourself after so many failed attempts, you might feel better knowing that you did the right thing, according to your religion. If you don't mind me asking, what was the thing that happened that went so strongly against your own religion that it's filled you with overwhelming guilt and eating you from the inside out?

You should do whatever you feel is right, imo. I don't believe in religion but can see how it could be so troubling when you feel one way and your religion says you should feel another. Take a step back and really consider your circumstances. You might have to learn to draw a line, like "even though I am a strong believer of this religion, and am trying my hardest to be loyal to it, will I let it control every aspect of my life and let it destroy me from the inside out?" If something is harming you in such a way that it's a huge detriment to your mental health and wellbeing, you should probably stop participating in it. Just my two cents on the matter.