I'm angry that my family destroyed my life to the point where I now have to ctb

[boingo]

I truly had a good life 6 months ago. Now I'm in constant pain. I've got my own online shop, I made a life for myself. I want to fucking kill the people who did this to me but instead I have to kill myself, they don't deserve to live, they've taken my life from me, I've been treated like I'm worthless. I never did anything bad to anyone. I couldn't even get so much as an apology or an admittance that they caused it.

 

[TimetoGo!]

I truly had a good life 6 months ago. Now I'm in constant pain. I've got my own online shop, I made a life for myself. I want to fucking kill the people who did this to me but instead I have to kill myself, they don't deserve to live, they've taken my life from me, I've been treated like I'm worthless. I never did anything bad to anyone. I couldn't even get so much as an apology or an admittance that they caused it.

What did they do? have you lost the business?

 

[Huntfish34]

I was wondering the same thing, what happened?

 

[leaf23]

OP I'm so sorry, that sounds like the worst. The world is really unfair and some people are really selfish. Sometimes they even make it seem like it's too much to even expect others to respect you and your rights the way you respect others'. I know the way you feel

 

[Al_stargate]

Same thing here. Had an amazing life just last year. Thriving online business. One mistake and it's all over. Trusting the wrong person. Now I have to die.

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds so horrible, and it's certainly understandable as to why you would be so angry at others for causing so much harm. It certainly does seem as though in this world humans are responsible for so much of the suffering that exists and it's tragic how they can potentially torture others. But I hope that you find the freedom that you wish for.

 

[Cryptonite]

I truly had a good life 6 months ago. Now I'm in constant pain. I've got my own online shop, I made a life for myself. I want to fucking kill the people who did this to me but instead I have to kill myself, they don't deserve to live, they've taken my life from me, I've been treated like I'm worthless. I never did anything bad to anyone. I couldn't even get so much as an apology or an admittance that they caused it.

Sufferer of medical mistake (misdiagnosis) that ruined my life too. I have a spinal disease called Scheuermann's disease. I resonate with everything you said, especially with the utter anger. Nobody can understand the brutal level of anger that one can feel towards someone who ruined your life. It's like, you can be a normal, kind person, but suddenly you feel a deep urge to commit various atrocities to them.

Talking about apologies, I've been through a very long complaint process with both doctors who misdiagnosed me. No apology, admittance or anything, obviously. You have a better chance of discovering an unicorn than having a doctor apologize to you.

This is how I did it: send a million complaints to different institutions, called them, met them, wrote many bad online reviews. After I received a reply to a 5th complaint (this time to the highest possible institution available), I wrote to the doctors that my life is ruined forever, but I forgive them. And I took down all the bad reviews from the Internet.

Now the last letter they receive will be my CTB letter. I hope this messes up with their head a little, although I don't have high expectations. These people feel no guilt.

And this is all after I've become one of the first people in my country to get cured from a severe mental illness. I was looking forward to a life, for the first time ever. I had school, job, friends, sports, you name it. It's all gone again. Fu*k me.

 

[damaged_soul]

I feel you so hard. Except in this case it was my best friend who ruined me (although my family has definitely done toxic/abusive things to me in the past as well which had made me want to ctb).

 

[Al_stargate]

Sufferer of medical mistake (misdiagnosis) that ruined my life too. I have a spinal disease called Scheuermann's disease. I resonate with everything you said, especially with the utter anger. Nobody can understand the brutal level of anger that one can feel towards someone who ruined your life. It's like, you can be a normal, kind person, but suddenly you feel a deep urge to commit various atrocities to them.

Talking about apologies, I've been through a very long complaint process with both doctors who misdiagnosed me. No apology, admittance or anything, obviously. You have a better chance of discovering an unicorn than having a doctor apologize to you.

This is how I did it: send a million complaints to different institutions, called them, met them, wrote many bad online reviews. After I received a reply to a 5th complaint (this time to the highest possible institution available), I wrote to the doctors that my life is ruined forever, but I forgive them. And I took down all the bad reviews from the Internet.

Now the last letter they receive will be my CTB letter. I hope this messes up with their head a little, although I don't have high expectations. These people feel no guilt.

And this is all after I've become one of the first people in my country to get cured from a severe mental illness. I was looking forward to a life, for the first time ever. I had school, job, friends, sports, you name it. It's all gone again. Fu*k me.

So-called doctor ruined my life too. I was just a money bag for him at his private clinic, he straight up lied just to get me to do surgery. When things didn't turn out right he treated me like shit, just to get rid of me. I really wanna kill him now, for real. I wanna torture him for days until he dies an excruciating death. I would never in a million years remove my bad review. although it does not bring me any satisfaction. He needs to suffer in a horrible way for the rest of his life. If I don't kill myself soon, I'm gonna kill him, I know where he lives.
You shouldn't forgive them, they didn't care for you and after you die they'll be happy to get rid of you. Doctors are the worst. They are protected more than an endangered species. Nobody can do shit to them, no matter what they do. Only way is to take justice into own hands and make them pay with interests. That's the only way. They need to be held responsible. Hope they burn in hell for millions of years.

 

[OnlyTheWind]

I hate people who ruin the lives of others.

 

[almostoutofhere]

I wish we could go back in time. Just a year ago my life was great. Now the only way out is dying

 

[OnlyTheWind]

I wish we could go back in time. Just a year ago my life was great. Now the only way out is dying

I wish I could go back to high school, be confident, talk to my crush and have the life I wanted. Your assessment of the situation is the sad reality we are faced with.

 

[almostoutofhere]

Sufferer of medical mistake (misdiagnosis) that ruined my life too. I have a spinal disease called Scheuermann's disease. I resonate with everything you said, especially with the utter anger. Nobody can understand the brutal level of anger that one can feel towards someone who ruined your life. It's like, you can be a normal, kind person, but suddenly you feel a deep urge to commit various atrocities to them.

Talking about apologies, I've been through a very long complaint process with both doctors who misdiagnosed me. No apology, admittance or anything, obviously. You have a better chance of discovering an unicorn than having a doctor apologize to you.

This is how I did it: send a million complaints to different institutions, called them, met them, wrote many bad online reviews. After I received a reply to a 5th complaint (this time to the highest possible institution available), I wrote to the doctors that my life is ruined forever, but I forgive them. And I took down all the bad reviews from the Internet.

Now the last letter they receive will be my CTB letter. I hope this messes up with their head a little, although I don't have high expectations. These people feel no guilt.

And this is all after I've become one of the first people in my country to get cured from a severe mental illness. I was looking forward to a life, for the first time ever. I had school, job, friends, sports, you name it. It's all gone again. Fu*k me.

I think that some people, like us, are just not meant to be happy for too long in this life. It's like we only get a glimpse or a little snippet of what it's like to be happy

 

[Obliviate]

Same. It's sad that your parents ultimately set up the blueprint of your life and if they are shitty then you're fucked. Only the lucky ones make it out of the blueprint. My family have caused me so much fucking trauma that I have severe mental disabilities and probably brain damage from all the stress. It's bad enough that the outside world is a bad place but to then also suffer through that bad at home it's like a 24/7 hell

I always think, maybe I could have been somebody if atleast my family was normal. Such a shame

 

[Cryptonite]

I think that some people, like us, are just not meant to be happy for too long in this life. It's like we only get a glimpse or a little snippet of what it's like to be happy

Yeah, exactly. Just a snippet before it's taken away from us again. But that snippet is torturing us, because we then suffer from grief of not being able to experience the "green side". Happy snippets are nothing more than a cleverly devised way to torture us just a little more.

So-called doctor ruined my life too. I was just a money bag for him at his private clinic, he straight up lied just to get me to do surgery. When things didn't turn out right he treated me like shit, just to get rid of me. I really wanna kill him now, for real. I wanna torture him for days until he dies an excruciating death. I would never in a million years remove my bad review. although it does not bring me any satisfaction. He needs to suffer in a horrible way for the rest of his life. If I don't kill myself soon, I'm gonna kill him, I know where he lives.
You shouldn't forgive them, they didn't care for you and after you die they'll be happy to get rid of you. Doctors are the worst. They are protected more than an endangered species. Nobody can do shit to them, no matter what they do. Only way is to take justice into own hands and make them pay with interests. That's the only way. They need to be held responsible. Hope they burn in hell for millions of years.

I'm actually relieved to know my anger doesn't make me crazy and that this line of thinking can be actually normal.

I didn't actually forgive them. I hate them to the bone. But my goals are two:
1) to make sure they remember my case forever
2) to instill a guilt into them

Showing your anger will not, unfortunately, make anyone feel guilty. This is how "nature" constructed it. On the other hand, showing (even a fake) forgiveness will bring these feelings to the surface. And also, the more lengthy the complaint process is and the more various emotions are included, the higher the likelihood that they will remember my case.

If it was legal, I'd say go on and punish your doctor however you'd like. But, as extremely damn CRUEL as it sounds, even if they apologized profusely, it wouldn't take things back.

Cruelty, unfairness is a huge part of this world. Just take a look at the recent news. War in Ukraine, civil war in Iran, stampede in Seoul etc. etc. Also hunger in Africa, slave-like working conditions in Asia, Chinese death camps in Xinjiang and so much more and more.

It also helps to imagine how you'd behave if you were a doctor. As we know, this kind of a behavior is common among so many doctors. Is it because only cruel people go into medicine? No, it is rather systemic. If we were doctors, we'd be very interested in money, we'd have ego, we wouldn't want to listen to patient complaints again and again.

Also, do you know some job or industry that is not filled with people who know very little and the only thing they care about is their own gain? Teachers, policemen, lawyers, politicians, Government employees. Hell, even bricklayers, carpenters, electricians... it is endless. The ONLY difference is that doctors' negligence is much more severe than any other profession, maybe with the exception of politics and army, but the rest is 100% the same.