I’m always thinking about dying is best for me

[Shiru]

Hello as I said I wanna recover in order to help mom and cats but every day I think about dying and I keep doing habits to dye fast I think instead of recover I just will survive until I die
The thing is I can't see a good future and have a decent life in my own country I just can't and I won't go either so I accepted the fact I will be miserable here until I die. This country is like a church itself and I'm gay soo for now I'm studying a technician I just wanna graduate first

 

[avoid_slow_death]

That's a tough situation. Only advice I can give is focus on what's important to you and try to avoid interactions with people who make you feel bad about yourself. Also helps to make an actual physical journal like in a notebook. Being able to actually write down your thoughts and read them back in that way is actually pretty profound on a psychological level. This advice may or may not help, but I certainly hope it does. Best of luck to you and I hope you can achieve the inner peace you desire.

 

[Shiru]

That's a tough situation. Only advice I can give is focus on what's important to you and try to avoid interactions with people who make you feel bad about yourself. Also helps to make an actual physical journal like in a notebook. Being able to actually write down your thoughts and read them back in that way is actually pretty profound on a psychological level. This advice may or may not help, but I certainly hope it does. Best of luck to you and I hope you can achieve the inner peace you desire.

Thanks for advice actually I write a lot in mini notebooks that helps a lot to vent also I don't interact with people more than classmates I'm a home stay in anyways thanks and have nice day