Story I'm almost ctb from oding.

[ccoki17]

I stuck it out until I couldn't hide that I downed 30+pills from my partner anymore. He caught me taking the last few pills and only thought it was a couple.

Nothing happened the first 1.5 hours then it hit me like a mfking train. I couldn't walk straight. I was vomiting and dry heaving in my (favorite bag)
I told my so to take me to the hospital and was going unconscious in the car, foaming at the mouth and apparently convulsing by the time I got to the ER. With all that being said it was oddly peaceful . I didn't really feel scared.

My labs/Drs say my heart went fast, wonky, then almost stopped.

But they saved me. I remember the moment when I was about to die more than anything else. There was a whole team in there working on me and putting pads against the bedsides so I wouldn't hurt myself during seizures. Asking me questions like where was I , what day was it. I was swiftly transferred to another hospital and ultimately saved.

That was actually insane.
These recovery days have been rougggghhhhh.

Listen to the stickies that say , nice loud and clear.... don't pick pills friends.

 

[gottacheckout]

I hope you don't have any lasting effects

 

[concession]

Are you willing to share which substance was used? 30 sounds like a really small amount of pills for suicide

 

[ccoki17]

Are you willing to share which substance was used? 30 sounds like a really small amount of pills for suicide

I think it was about 1000mg of pure dxm. I usually take 1-2 and that's more than enough to trip well.
But I am on SSRI, snri and a stimulant. So that combo at my weight around 96-98lbs almost stopped my heart. Crazy.

 

[Leonszabs]

I stuck it out until I couldn't hide that I downed 30+pills from my partner anymore. He caught me taking the last few pills and only thought it was a couple.

Nothing happened the first 1.5 hours then it hit me like a mfking train. I couldn't walk straight. I was vomiting and dry heaving in my (favorite bag)
I told my so to take me to the hospital and was going unconscious in the car, foaming at the mouth and apparently convulsing by the time I got to the ER. With all that being said it was oddly peaceful . I didn't really feel scared.

My labs/Drs say my heart went fast, wonky, then almost stopped.

But they saved me. I remember the moment when I was about to die more than anything else. There was a whole team in there working on me and putting pads against the bedsides so I wouldn't hurt myself during seizures. Asking me questions like where was I , what day was it. I was swiftly transferred to another hospital and ultimately saved.

That was actually insane.
These recovery days have been rougggghhhhh.

Listen to the stickies that say , nice loud and clear.... don't pick pills friends.

I hope your recovery goes by smoothly!

 

[bankai]

OP.How could you leave those beautiful dogs of yours and ctb?

Especially in the pic where all of them are looking at the camera at the same time. they look so smart and attentive.

But no I understand of course.Yeah. I've seen the non methods sticky quoted time and time again regarding pills overdose.Not a good attempt to make for sure. I'm sorry for what brought you to this point.

Edit :But you made a very good point about foaming at the mouth and convulsing, and it still being peaceful. Because I've seen many people here getting scared of the SN videos they watched where the person vomits and they think that the person is suffering. But I believe that the person isn't really conscious at that point and it's just an external reaction of the body.i hope people can read your post.

 

[ccoki17]

I hope you don't have any lasting effects

just got more labs back from today and my heart and my liver are not good rn x.x

I was so worried, forgot the name they kept telling me but they said it is heavily documented....my eyes couldn't focus, double vision, extremely dizzy, the pupils were jumping all around I couldn't follow anything with my eyes, or see straight or even keep eyes open for more than a few minutes at a time. holy chit. I don't even know. I'm so happy it went away cause there was a chance it wouldnt..
they had a neuro team regularly checking my eyes , brain scans and such they didn't see anything with the brain Atp..so who knows. Probably gonna get me down the line. I'm already chronically ill/considered disabled as it is.