I’m alive. please read.

[Regisphilbin_savant]

It's good to see you, Ben. I'm glad you're okay.

Nice seeing you back here ben

 

[DarkTear]

To be honest, the quote that Tiburcio posted was the first thing that came to my mind when I saw your thread. ;-)
But anyway, I feel sympathy with you and there's absolutely no need to excuse yourself that you're still alive.

Welcome back, Ben!

 

[Deleted member 847]

Ben use hanging instead, there's more evidence to it and it's hard to fuck it up. I think we should not risk, even if our bodies and lives are worthless to us.

 

[Ben]

By just reading your words breaks my heart... I surely missed your last goodbye post because of my inactivity, and I am so sorry you went through all that. You've been a good friend to many of us here and I am glad to see you back again Ben. Whatever you're going to do next, you have my support. :)

Thanks noisy! It is what it is. Im already focused on the completion of my next attempt instead of the failure of my last. I appreciate your support!

 

[Ben]

Nice seeing you back here ben

Thank you friend

 

[Deleted member 847]

For a moment i thought to use caffeine, fucking crazy, not only it's painful but there's no solid evidence. Only anecdotes

 

[Miss clefable]

For a moment i thought to use caffeine, fucking crazy, not only it's painful but there's no solid evidence. Only anecdotes

I will make myself evidence

 

[Ben]

To be honest, the quote that Tiburcio posted was the first thing that came to my mind when I saw your thread. ;-)
But anyway, I feel sympathy with you and there's absolutely no need to excuse yourself that you're still alive.

Welcome back, Ben!

It's ok. It's probably on everyone's mind, which is exactly why I address it as soon as i returned. I still belive in what I was TRYING to say haha. IMO I've explained it much better multiple times, and that will probably be the last time I'll adress it.

Thank you dark tear, I actually do look forward to continuing contributing here

 

[Desperate_Soul]

Thank you for the update, Ben. It's much appreciated. :)

Cute picture, by the way. It was like looking into your sole.

 

[skitliv]

Ben use hanging instead, there's more evidence to it and it's hard to fuck it up. I think we should not risk, even if our bodies and lives are worthless to us.

Werent you talking about apple seeds just minutes ago? Use your own advice

 

[Ben]

Ben use hanging instead, there's more evidence to it and it's hard to fuck it up. I think we should not risk, even if our bodies and lives are worthless to us.

It is still my plan B. There are far too many documented deaths and warnings about SWB to make me lose doubt, even after my failure. But I don't have time to keep failing, so I can't rely on one method anymore.

 

[Ben]

Thank you for the update, Ben. It's much appreciated. :)

Cute picture, by the way. It was like looking into your sole.

Hahahahah omg

 

[Deleted member 847]

Werent you talking about apple seeds just minutes ago? Use your own advice

No we were talking about cyanide which kills everyone, any time. The problem is I don't know how to extract it. But caffeine is not reliable.

 

[Hunter]

Sorry it didn't work out. Welcome back.

 

[Miss clefable]

No we were talking about cyanide which kills everyone, any time. The problem is I don't know how to extract it. But caffeine is not reliable.

I'm starting to think your a troll sorry

 

[Deleted member 847]

I will make myself evidence

Miss please at least take a rope with you, you already failed a od if I'm not wrong

 

[Ben]

Sorry it didn't work out. Welcome back.

Yea can somebody please tell me how I'm supposed to feel right now? because I have no idea lol

thanks tho hunter :)

 

[Deleted member 847]

I'm starting to think your a troll sorry

Not a troll, just an idiot who doesn't understand chemistry, can we stay on topic?

 

[Miss clefable]

Miss please at least take a rope with you, you already failed a od if I'm not wrong

Yep but I know I won't with this one

 

[Moth]

No method is foolproof, and I understand the feels when you put so much effort into a goodbye, and then failing afterwards, it was only last week my brother came in (forgot to check my f on door was double locked, I'm such an idiot) and found me covered in blood, still annoyingly alive, and he found my notes, and he read them, that was a little awkward. I guess every failure is a learning curve.

 

[Miss clefable]

Not a troll, just an idiot who doesn't understand chemistry, can we stay on topic?

Only if you can and stop making me feel bad for my method

 

[Hunter]

It's easy to write off people who fail their attempt but if we are here, should be pretty obvious that it isn't easy to die. Don't feel badly. I'm sorry you have a time constraint working against you. Hoping the conditions are better for you next time.

 

[Deleted member 847]

Only if you can and stop making me feel bad for my method

Well I can't change your mind, just be careful

 

[Miss clefable]

Well I can't change your mind, just be careful

You too with your apples

 

[Deleted member 847]

You too with your apples

I think I'll stick to hanging

 

[Ben]

It's easy to write off people who fail their attempt but if we are here, should be pretty obvious that it isn't easy to die. Don't feel badly. I'm sorry you have a time constraint working against you. Hoping the conditions are better for you next time.

Strong words, well said, they make me smile

 

[Ben]

You too with your apples

lol

 

[MachineGunDani]

sorry it was such a horrible experience, I hope ur balls are ok lol. I feel bad ur plan didn't work out butttttt glad ur back bc u seem like a really cool person! Hugs!!

 

[Desperate_Soul]

Oooo I forgot the part about his balls... Update please.

 

[Deleted member 847]

When we plan to ctb we need to take into consideration every possible tiny thing than can go wrong. We can't let ourselves suffer even more than how we did before.