I feel stupid venting on here. But I'm glad it's here. I feel so empty. Like there is nothing left to me anymore. When I see pictures of myself I see nothing. My mom wants me to go out more and to get a job since I had to quit from my last one but I just don't see the point. I'm just going to ctb anyways, but ofc she doesn't know that. I want to tell others how I truly feel, my true intentions but if I did that I would probably go back to a treatment centre. Risk physical abuse, mental abuse, neglect, emotional neglect and just a lot of other traumatic shit. I'm not going through that again. Everyone feels so distant from me. I think I just need to go through with this soon. Sorry if you had to read all that.
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guayabas
Student
- Mar 19, 2023
- 167
I'm so sorry treatment centers are so abusive and just make everything worse. I wish there was more humane, effective support out there for us
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 47,977
I certainly think that it's a terrible idea to tell others as those treatment centres sound like absolutely horrific places that just cause more suffering. But anyway, best wishes.
AngryDog
Member
- Mar 2, 2023
- 73
I'm so sorry you're going through that feeling of emptiness. It can be quite hard to carry on if you see no end to your suffering. I know it's an unpopular opinion, but if there's any part of you that wishes to get better, I suggest you to speak with a psychiatrist or therapist. Keeping those feelings to yourself is not a good long term solution and could only make things worse. It's hard to battle when one is struggling to get out of bed but by taking one step at a time you can make small improvements. Putting those emotions into words is good for identifying the problem and speaking with someone can also help a lot.
I wish you to have a nice day. Take care.
Been there, done that. That's how I got more trauma then before. I appreciate you wanting to help. Not only that it takes years to get a psychiatrist and it would take years to find a therapist that would work for me. The more common therapy's they do don't really work on me and I have to find someone who fits me. Waiting list is atleast a year for that. And honestly I'm just ready to go at this point, I'm ok with it.Similar threads
