Venting I'm a fucking waste of a human being

[shotgun]

I hate my parents for having children while in poverty, fucking like bunnies knowing damn well they couldn't support a family even in their dreams. Then here I am, no job, no life, barely any friends and too many addictions to count. All I do everyday is smoke weed and drink myself away like the fucking junkie I've become. All I have left to do is buy enough shit to overdose into oblivion.

 

[webb&flow]

i'm so sorry to hear that. that is seriously rough.

i saw you posted in a previous thread that you felt cared for in the psych ward, and you felt like your problems were taken seriously there. i was just wondering how you felt on this from then. (i know it's been many months since that thread though, so i understand if your feelings have changed at all. i just thought it was worth bringing up.)

please know that you are a human being just like any other and i hope you are able to experience the healing you deserve. i know it can feel fucked up having all that in your system and being tugged up by so much of it.

behind every junkie is just someone who wants to feel alright (and tries to make themselves feel alright through certain chemicals), and i feel that's not such a bad thing to want.

i understand if you feel really out of it rn though. i just want to note that if you ever wish to have someone to speak to, please feel free to message me anytime and i promise to write back in honest detail.

my wishes with you, shotgun.

—from hunter