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LonelyPrince

LonelyPrince

Rotten to the Core
Dec 12, 2025
102
Something went wrong with me.
I always was one step behind from everyone else, always more childlike and clueless.

Mentally, I feel like a child.
Physically, I don't age.

Was it trauma?
I can't say.

Mother always mentions how I seem to just be going backwards in life.

I was ruined completely.
There is this pressure and shame of not living like everyone else, not following their lifestyle. However, I'm aware that I'm not forced to do that.

When people speak about dating and sexual things I get anxious. I start panicking aswell as getting dysphoric.

Am I just stuck as a child forever? Will I rot in this corpse with the mind of a defenseless toddler?
 
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Dark Moon

Dark Moon

Paragon
Sep 21, 2022
936
Same, I don't feel like I passed the childhood/teenager phase. Trauma could be one of the reasons.
 
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