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Chechnan Cocaine Dealer
- Aug 10, 2022
- 9
Guy I was very invested in broke up with me to get back together with his old girl. He went from being the first guy that was actually nice to me to being so cold and mean. Since then, he has gotten a great new job, moved his girl into his house, and she's now pregnant. When we met, he was so miserable and I supported him and encouraged him through so much. It meant nothing, I meant nothing.
Since then, my job has gotten more soul sucking and I was rejected for a job I really wanted. I've gone months without feeling human touch. This has been the pattern, break my heart and you'll find your partner and success. Third time in a row. I just have this constant feeling of humiliation for even thinking I'm the kind of person someone would want to build a life with.
Over the past year, I've tried to cultivate a relationship with God and to believe there is a purpose to this pain. I thought I was beginning to develop a real spiritual life and was being guided towards something better. None of the signs I received were real. Another heartbreak.
I bought SN last night. March 1st is my ideal date.
Since then, my job has gotten more soul sucking and I was rejected for a job I really wanted. I've gone months without feeling human touch. This has been the pattern, break my heart and you'll find your partner and success. Third time in a row. I just have this constant feeling of humiliation for even thinking I'm the kind of person someone would want to build a life with.
Over the past year, I've tried to cultivate a relationship with God and to believe there is a purpose to this pain. I thought I was beginning to develop a real spiritual life and was being guided towards something better. None of the signs I received were real. Another heartbreak.
I bought SN last night. March 1st is my ideal date.