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anastenka

anastenka

Rosa
Apr 25, 2024
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I wake up every day begging the world to give me something terminal, I know it sounds selfish, especially because so many people suffer because of illness but it's the only thing I want out of life. I want a way out that doesn't require me to do it myself. If I were say diagnosed with something progressive like cancer, I would most definitely refuse any treatment and choose to wait out death. No matter how many months or years, because at least there will be an end sooner rather than later. It sounds stupid but I probably wouldn't even be as suicidal as I am now, I'd be free to live in the moment knowing that it will end. And it will be slow too, not something that just happens quickly. I'll die with the people I love, surrounded by care. I would finally have an excuse to live and die as I please
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

She wished that she never existed...
Sep 24, 2020
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It's really understandable wishing for that, I don't think it's selfish at all.
 
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Aprilfarewell4

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Apr 9, 2024
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I wake up every day begging the world to give me something terminal, I know it sounds selfish, especially because so many people suffer because of illness but it's the only thing I want out of life. I want a way out that doesn't require me to do it myself. If I were say diagnosed with something progressive like cancer, I would most definitely refuse any treatment and choose to wait out death. No matter how many months or years, because at least there will be an end sooner rather than later. It sounds stupid but I probably wouldn't even be as suicidal as I am now, I'd be free to live in the moment knowing that it will end. And it will be slow too, not something that just happens quickly. I'll die with the people I love, surrounded by care. I would finally have an excuse to live and die as I please
It's awful that we are all denied a peaceful exit when it's our life and our choice. I'm sorry so many of us go through this hell. I wish I could help you. 🙏🕯️
 
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Meteora

Ignorance is bliss
Jun 27, 2023
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I feel the same. I wish I had cancer. Fully agree to what you write.
 
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anastenka

anastenka

Rosa
Apr 25, 2024
66
Pretty sure that's the last thing anyone should wish for
I am an irrational person, selfish too, who just would rather die naturally but also quickly. I know it's not logical to wish for a terminal illness but I am, once again, awful. OP is clearly struggling and we should all keep open minds for this topic
 
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Meteora

Ignorance is bliss
Jun 27, 2023
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Pretty sure that's the last thing anyone should wish for.
I ve seen many people having cancer.... the treatments and care is enormous. I m obviously speaking of my country only where everybody has health insurances.
If I had cancer there would be no more loneliness and isolation because tons of people would suddenly care.
 
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