Dear Jule, I have been following your threads and I am deeply sorry for this enormous suffering you have to go through - especially as such a young person. You are brave.
I wish you as many pleasant moments with your loved ones and with everything you like, as much as it is possible. I wish you a peaceful transition when the time comes. Since you have strong medication, I am sure you will not suffer. All the best - and have a great party!
We are thinking of you.