I do as well of course, only never existing is perfection. To me there is no value in existing, there's nothing desirable about meaningless and unnecessary suffering with the risk of being tormented much more always there at any moment. All that existence does is create problems there were never a need for in the first place, I only see existence as a mistake. I also wish there's the option to just disappear and have our existence erased, it would be ideal, relieving and prevent so much suffering.