I'm so sorry, I'm so so sorry, I was so selfish, and I know you'll miss me, and I know I broke you, and I know that I had a chance. I miss myself, I miss who I was, I miss the person I built, I miss the life I had. I wanted to be strong for you and I've given up, I can't anymore, I can't do this, I'm so tired. You poured your heart into me, you had nothing, and you made me, and you love me, and I'm doing this to you. Don't follow me, I don't want you to, you have so much ahead of me, but who am I to be angry if you do. I know all the reasons I should've stayed, and I didn't.
Omma will blame everyone who ever really loved me, and I'm sorry that you'll be blamed, and I hope she doesn't try to make a new me, and I hope that you won't have to suffer the way I did. I'm just so tired, and my vision is so foggy, and I can't keep putting one foot in front of the other, because I want to see, and my ankles hurt, and they're twisting, and I'm falling, and the sand is high. Please don't blame yourself, I know you will, it's only natural. I can't request from you, I owe everything to you, I'm doing the worst thing I could, and I know you miss me, and I miss you, and there's no me to miss you anymore, and theirs no me to feel joy, and to watch movies with you, and to laugh, and to cry, and to feel like my head is exploding and like I can't get out of bed.
I love you, forever and always. I'm so sorry.
Omma will blame everyone who ever really loved me, and I'm sorry that you'll be blamed, and I hope she doesn't try to make a new me, and I hope that you won't have to suffer the way I did. I'm just so tired, and my vision is so foggy, and I can't keep putting one foot in front of the other, because I want to see, and my ankles hurt, and they're twisting, and I'm falling, and the sand is high. Please don't blame yourself, I know you will, it's only natural. I can't request from you, I owe everything to you, I'm doing the worst thing I could, and I know you miss me, and I miss you, and there's no me to miss you anymore, and theirs no me to feel joy, and to watch movies with you, and to laugh, and to cry, and to feel like my head is exploding and like I can't get out of bed.
I love you, forever and always. I'm so sorry.
