Discussion If your main goal in life was to CTB, what subject would you study in college?

[RimeOfTheAncient]

Imagine this: you are a 24-year-old with no real life goals or wants other than a clean death. You lost your job and are about to be homeless, but have one last scheme you want to try. Because you never messed with credit cards or have any debt, the government and some predatory banks are willing to give you an ungodly student loan, enough to live on a campus for 4 years and get a degree. Note, no matter the degree, you won't ever be able to make enough to pay those loans off, but that doesn't matter to you because unless the entirety of the world changes its course (it won't), you're going to kill yourself at graduation. In this little thought experiment, what could you choose to study? The goals are to be able to have a soild way to die at the end of the 4 years and also not have to work to hard the 4 years before hand.

#1: Vet technician. This one is based 100% on the ability to get N. It's well known vets still use it to euthanize animals, and in your studies you might be able to swipe a bottle of the good stuff downside is that it's depressing as fuck, probably quite hard to do, and who knows if you would ever even get the option to get a bottle of the stuff.

#2: Chemist. I feel like this one would be the best for most people: you get access to dangerous chemicals and a lot of knowledge on what NOT TO DO if you want to live. So just do the opposite of that, lmao. But all the sites that will send SN to legit businesses or labs that we can't use? I bet you could if you got it through a university. Also, you might be able to learn how to make N or cyanide, or laughing gas, and who knows what else, maybe even discover a new method no one's used yet?

#3: Nuclear engineer. Nuclear work is dangerous as fuck; maybe that can be used to your advantage? Drop some radioactive stuff in your shoe and you are dead one week later. That said, I bet it would be painful as hell, but I don't know much about this.

#4: Bio major. Sort of a bit of all the above. I think you get to choose a lot of what you study, so you could learn a bit about chemistry and other things that could be good to know. I guess my logic for this one is that if you know a lot about how life works, you would know a lot about how to end it. Biggest con: if you ever had to write a paper about suicide, it would be hard to write it from the common anti-suicide perspective, and if you write it pro-suicide, you might get flagged.

Any big ones I'm missing? Or does anyone have any other interesting ideas on what you would study?

 

[itsgone2]

#1: Vet technician. This one is based 100% on the ability to get N. It's well known vets still use it to euthanize animals, and in your studies you might be able to swipe a bottle of the good stuff downside is that it's depressing as fuck, probably quite hard to do, and who knows if you would ever even get the option to get a bottle of the stuff.

Pretty good first answer. I'm wondering, how safeguarded can this stuff be?

 

[vanillamilkshakes]

I think Chemist is the best choice on the list. It may help you research different methods of CTB and understand how the human body reacts to ingesting certain chemicals. Like you said, you'd also gain access to substances that are usually restricted to the general public. (And if the world, by some miracle, changes course, it's a useful degree to have.)

Personally, I'd study philosophy as well. I also know I'll CTB one day, and I think it would be interesting to explore different philosophical perspectives and views on life. I'm sure it's a safer space to discuss the "deeper" feelings you might normally feel uncomfortable sharing with other students.

 

[PI3.14]

Won't go to college actually ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯

IMO, if someone is suicidal, like severely suicidal, not the "I wish to die but I'm not sure", then they won't succeed in college to begin with.

I say this as someone who went back to college multiple times while being severely suicidal.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

You'd have to go longer than 4 years (scholarship + more loans after 4 year degree?), but take the courses as an undergrad for what you'd need to get into Veterinarian school afterwards. Easy access to Nembutal then once a Vet.

 

[TheCallOfTheStars]

Personally, chemistry would be my go-to if my main goal in life was to CTB and only if I absolutely HAD to go to college.

 

[caesium]

I would highly advise against option #3. Radiation is a terrible way to die and depending on the amount, you could be in the hospital for a long time while your skin rots and your bone marrow wastes away.

There's actually one case of a suspected suicide by radiation. A man named Douglas Crofut who was a radiographer. The theory is that he put radioactive material into his shirt pocket. He spent months in the hospital and by the time he was dead the radiation burn had eaten away the left side of his chest. It's a really interesting case if you like things like that.