If your life was a movie...?

[Deadgirl]

If my life was a movie it would be horror. I am a loner girl who fights demons (i am demon infested from a curse from bullies), but i look ok on the inside. Eventually i realize that i inadvertently hurt myself and others so i kill myself. The End

 

[Bärchen]

Boring but with lots of cats and videogames

 

[GeorgeJL]

Think of the last serious movie you watched. Something where the main character is going through some hopeless, hellish crap and the whole thing feels like it's going to end bad.

Did you walk out? Or did you watch the whole movie?

Ok, let's assume you watched the whole thing. Why? Maybe it was interesting. Maybe you had nothing else to do. Whatever, I'll cut to the point... If you were watching a movie about your life--not actually living it, not actually feeling the pain/burden/shame of the main character--chances are you wouldn't be so hell bent on putting a bullet through the movie projector to end the flick.

My question is why can't we see our real lives this way? Wouldn't that solve all our problems? Whatsamatter, are you broke, homeless, ugly and hated by everyone... That sounds like an interesting movie, I wonder how it'll turn out.

Or more to the point, suppose the "movie" is about someone whose life sucks, but this person's life will impact others in a very important way. I know you're probably thinking "Yeah right, I have nothing important to share with the world" but you never know. And I guess that's the whole point of letting the movie play out til the end.

Well now that I've given you the spiel, let me tell you 1 quick paragraph about me. I swear I'm going to fng kill myself. I'm just waiting for the trigger (in my case it's very specific and inevitable) and everything gets set in motion. So I'm just waiting every day for that death sentence. At the moment all is quiet, I'm in control, so I can manage to form a few coherent sentences and semi logical thoughts. All this stuff about looking at my life objectively as if it were a movie... Sure, I should live. There are things I need to do. All the logic in the world says the movie must go on.

But it won't.

You can learn to view life as a movie. Do meditation, take psychedelics, personally I took 2c-b 4-aco-dmt and vaped some marijuana and I was caught up in life in the abstract. Everything including all my experience was fractaling outward. Every thought was like an abstract painting. What I was viewing was an abstract painting. It was a very intense trip. My level of creativity sky rocketed in the most abstract and funny way imaginable.

 

[housecat]

I have difficulty caring about fictional people. Something else would have to hold my interest. Perhaps if it was a film about cats. But even then, 30+ years is a bit long to hold my interest.