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Random_Taco

Random_Taco

New Member
Jun 3, 2024
1
So many regrets and what ifs, those are the thoughts that keep me awake at night and I'd like to avoid that thank you..
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
15,204
Yeah, I gave it a good shot. I'm not a big one for regret. I think we make the choices we feel capable of making at the time. I think I'd be focusing more on the relief that it was coming to an end.
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

I have finally found my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,795
Hell yes I would be satisfied. I'd be satisfied that I don't have to suffer anymore. I'd be satisfied that I'll be free from the chains of modern society. If I'm dead, I won't be able to get exploited by society nor will I have to contribute to society which is exactly what I want. I'll be free via death
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
13,310
Would you be satisfied with how your life has played out, or would you have lingering regrets?
I'd be satisfied bc I can say I lived my life before I failed big in life. most the things I haven't done yet or I didn't achieve yet are unattainable now. From that point of view I'm happy that I could live my life the way I did and I wouldn't regret anything if I died naturally.
 
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sserafim

sserafim

they say it's darkest of all before the dawn
Sep 13, 2023
9,013
Hell yes I would be satisfied. I'd be satisfied that I don't have to suffer anymore. I'd be satisfied that I'll be free from the chains of modern society. If I'm dead, I won't be able to get exploited by society nor will I have to contribute to society which is exactly what I want. I'll be free via death
Same
 
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leavingthesoultrap

leavingthesoultrap

(ᴗ_ ᴗ。)
Nov 25, 2023
1,212
No, the reason I want to end it is because how awful my life is.
 
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przeciwwymiotne

Be rude to me at all times, I don't deserve kindne
Jun 27, 2022
360
Would you be satisfied with how your life has played out, or would you have lingering regrets?
No, I really don't want to CTB, I'd love to do so many things in my life. I just wish my life would return back to normal. My disability makes me depressed. I want to laugh, I want to explore the world with my loving boyfriend whom I love really much. But I feel like I'm becoming a burden to him. It's hard to function like normal people.

And the worst part is that when I feel good (I eat well, move, talk to people) I often sabotage myself and go back to bad habits cuz they're comforting, familiar and it's weird to feel good for a long period of time - it's tiring.

I JUST WANT LIFE TO BE EASIER I can't even complete basic tasks most of the time ;(
 
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Darkover

Darkover

Archangel
Jul 29, 2021
5,649
not even slightly close to being satisfied with my life but at least this misery in hell ends
 
TDF

TDF

Meh might as well die
Jun 24, 2023
475
I wouldn't be satisfied but I don't regret what I did I tried my best with the information I had at the time
 
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ThisGameIsOverrated

Experienced
May 6, 2024
226
Yes, death is all I want
 
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lizzywizzy09

Arcanist
May 11, 2024
460
If I were satisfied, I wouldn't want to ctb in the first place. Low quality of life makes me want to.
 
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HopeToStay

Member
May 31, 2024
95
I've had a whole heap of bad times, but a bunch of incredible times too.

I wouldn't say i would be satisfied, my life had a lot of potential at one point but it never panned out, there's a lot of things i wanted to do that i now won't be able to.

But I'd have to be grateful for the good times and wish they could have lasted longer and continued. I've had a much better life than the majority of people that have existed in history. I just feel it's now in negative equity.
 
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ecliptic

ecliptic

take me to the afterlife
Jun 2, 2024
76
To avoid future complications I would be satisfied.
 
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abchia

abchia

Student
Aug 28, 2023
181
I wouldn't care anymore because I would be at peace.
 
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ADBoy777

ADBoy777

Student
May 16, 2024
183
Honestly I'll just be glad it's over this would make me feel satisfied with how it ends at least
 
cowboypants

cowboypants

From milkyway
May 7, 2024
576
Prolly not I want to eat my favorite foods one last time, although my existence as is pretty meaningless
 
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lizzywizzy09

Arcanist
May 11, 2024
460
I failed so utterly in life that even during the good times I was haunted by what could have been. This life is such a write off now that it's a joke.
 
LostinTime24

LostinTime24

Discharged&Defeated
Mar 26, 2024
55
No I still do not and probbaly will not ever get closure for all sorts of different things. When I'm gone I won't have to think about it
 
derpyderpins

derpyderpins

:( precisely as ugly as Sidney Sweeney :(
Sep 19, 2023
2,223
For all my weaknesses and flaws, I think I've done what I can. I've met good people. I've made amends with anyone I'd feel guilt towards. If it could be a natural death that wouldn't upset my loved ones (not in the way ctb would, where it's my fault) I think I'd be relieved that the struggle is over. Although I'd be pissed Robert Smith has had me waiting for this damn album over a decade and I died before he did.
 
ctbcat

ctbcat

Tomorrow Is Nearly Yesterday & Everyday Is Stupid
Jul 14, 2023
240
i don't think i would be satisfied but that's just because i hate myself. i wouldn't be any more satisfied dying a year from now, a decade from now. my life needs to die. it's not an if, just a when
 
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DolerDolerDoler

DolerDolerDoler

Member
Jun 4, 2024
24
regrets are consuming and clouding... I can cope but ill never be satisfied truly
 
soulsing

soulsing

Nothing special
Jun 9, 2024
11
There's so many regrets I still have, and so many loose ends to tie up. I wouldn't be satisfied if I died today, but I can't say I wouldn't be relieved.
 
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youshallrideeternal

youshallrideeternal

Member
Jun 11, 2024
12
No, I wouldn't be, hence, why I want CTB in the first place. As far as regrets; honestly, I tell myself I don't believe in regrets - things are what they are and they turned out how they did, and I can't change them now as I don't think I could change some of them then. But yeah, I also know there's a bit of BS to that; there's a lot of things I'll regret. But again, what would be the point in dwindling in them.
 

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