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mrelief82

Broken to 1000 pcs
Nov 23, 2023
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If it turned out that after you die you remain a conscious being, like a ghost would cbt be a relief which you looking for anyway? I am so messed up that I just would like to disappear and don't exist , feel, know, nothing. I don't feel that taking away outside problems would give me peace anymore , it's not life that is bad is that I can't join it anymore and live.Anyone have similar thoughts?
 
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AkaRed

AkaRed

Come on! Let’s go, we’ll make our future together.
Apr 20, 2023
216
Oh god it'd be a fucking nightmare and I don't even want to fathom or consider the possibility of it

There better not be any afterlife or type of consciousness holy fuck please no

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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

death will be my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,219
No, that wouldn't be a relief to me. I want to ctb because of how I feel like it's guaranteed for me to be permanently non sentient after I'm dead. It's the beauty of permanent non existence which makes me want to ctb and hence being conscious after death would terrify me immensely...
 
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Denza

Denza

breaking down woohoo
Apr 15, 2024
36
No, it'd make me feel worse since i wanted to ctb to escape my emotions. Seeing people after my death would make me feel even worse since id get to see what i did to them
 
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mrelief82

Broken to 1000 pcs
Nov 23, 2023
130
No, that wouldn't be a relief to me. I want to ctb because of how I feel like it's guaranteed for me to be permanently non sentient after I'm dead. It's the beauty of permanent non existence which makes me want to ctb and hence being conscious after death would terrify me immensely...
That's the reason I'm afraid to cbt, that only body will die but the longer I drag myself here the worse it is and I regret I didn't cbt sooner when I was a bit better. I know it's sick… it's catholic faith make me think that and all the movies with tormented souls … I am really jealous of people who just die in peace , have everything sorted here and are sane. I wish this life of mine was just void, deleted from any of the universe memory, even that my life was good for a long time I can't recall this or remember what feeling was it to feel alright and intact. I wish I could turn back time and do not let my ex manipulate me to this extent and not go to hypnosis which finished me but it's not possible. I would do everything to get to live this life again from the start and make different choice. We don't know what is out there, but if my worries were right then if one killed himself while being happy then would stay happy forever?
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
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Who can tell? If you don't have a body, no physical pain, no responsibilities to earn money or do anything- who knows? Maybe our perception of time would be different. Maybe we could choose to sleep for eternity. I think we tend to envisage an afterlife according to the parameters of this existence but- why? We definitely won't have these organic bodies for one. Maybe it will be the same, maybe it will be better. Maybe, there'll be nothing at all after this.

Whether we CTB or not- it's going to happen to us either way. I guess religious beliefs tend to dictate that a suicidal death could make matters worse. But regardless, we're all going to die one day and then, we'll find out I guess.
 
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rozeske

Maybe I am the problem
Dec 2, 2023
3,793
Yes. If there is a consciousness afterwards, which I believe there will be, it wouldn't be in our current living form but in our spiritual form. Completely different than our usual sense and way of thinking.
 
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limerance1

This is where I long to be; La Isla Bonita
May 11, 2023
40
Yes. If there is a consciousness afterwards, which I believe there will be, it wouldn't be in our current living form but in our spiritual form. Completely different than our usual sense and way of thinking.
Who can tell? If you don't have a body, no physical pain, no responsibilities to earn money or do anything- who knows? Maybe our perception of time would be different. Maybe we could choose to sleep for eternity. I think we tend to envisage an afterlife according to the parameters of this existence but- why? We definitely won't have these organic bodies for one. Maybe it will be the same, maybe it will be better. Maybe, there'll be nothing at all after this.

Whether we CTB or not- it's going to happen to us either way. I guess religious beliefs tend to dictate that a suicidal death could make matters worse. But regardless, we're all going to die one day and then, we'll find out I guess.

This ^. Existing without a physical body would be much less of a burden.
 
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livingwishtodie

livingwishtodie

why ?
Feb 22, 2024
38
There are cases like many of them where people die and become ghosts and exist on this earth plane for years after their death. These people cant leave and live with the memories of human lives.
Each person transition is different, some feel cold and isolated and darkness, while others see light and warmth maybe it depends on the person's soul/energy frequency (their mental state, emotions, physical state and everything else maybe their environment also matters during their death).

Thats why it is said DEATH WHILE SLEEPING IS THE BEST DEATH.

I think maybe sleeping (rem cycle) is a natural body healing process which heals us mentally and physically.
So maybe our soul/frequency is at a higher frequency(=good frequency as considered by many religious books and ancient writing)

Death due to murder or torture ( like fire or accidents) including suicide is considered BAD
I ALWAYS QUESTIONED THIS WHY IS SUICIDE BAD ?

I did some research and the conclusion I got is that during the above mentioned deaths ----- the person is at a low frequency (called a frequency near devils frequency)----

So people say if you die by suicide or murdered you will end up in hell or become a insect or any other creature...

(I think heaven or hell is a place but not actual, maybe its in reference of the person who dies and the STATE THEY END UP IN ---- THEIR CORE ENERGY'S FREQUENCY.)

GHOSTS EXISTS I KNOW THAT

MAYBE HUMANS WITH SPECIAL powers ALSO EXIST BUT THEY HIDE OR ARE CAPTURED FOR RESEARCH

ALIENS MAY ALSO EXIST BUT BUT THE EVIDENCES ARE NOT MADE PUBLIC BY BIG ORGANISATIONS.

AND I THINK GOD WERE SOME HUMANS WITH SPECIAL MUTATED GENES THAT GAVE THEM SUPERPOWERS
BUT THEY MAY HAVE LEFT EARTH DUE TO THEIR OWN REASONS. LIKE fearing they may overpower others species or something.

Or they may have vanished completely due to some reasons

There is so much we don't know it is because even if someone knows something they may not tell the world due their own choice
Or their voices have been shut by external forces.
 
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HeavensOpenDoor

HeavensOpenDoor

Jul 6, 2020
87
Yes. A brief period of darkness, then a fading out of this reality into the afterlife. Like walking through a door. It's funny how so many people assume spirituality was invented by Greece and Rome. Prior to Rome and Greece there was a general consensus that life continued after death lol.

The Egyptians who built the pyramids (something we cannot do today) adamantly believed in an afterlife, and would prepare those near death for the transition. I'm going with the side that built Pyramids for my info, not the side that built statutes of naked men lol!😂
 
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AnonymousL

Specialist
Apr 5, 2023
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If it turned out that after you die you remain a conscious being, like a ghost would cbt be a relief which you looking for anyway? I am so messed up that I just would like to disappear and don't exist , feel, know, nothing. I don't feel that taking away outside problems would give me peace anymore , it's not life that is bad is that I can't join it anymore and live.Anyone have similar thoughts?
I had this talk with someone. He said that he's love reincarnation or to still be conscious in some way after death.

While I hardly disagree on that. The thought of having to keep living over and over again (in the case of reincarnation) is the worst idea ever. Never a stop to this horrible existence.

Being a ghost would be less awful but still something I wouldn't want. I need a way out. A way to stop existing. I don't want to be alive in anyway possible.

If I ctb I want it to be a permanent way of not existing.
 
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mrelief82

Broken to 1000 pcs
Nov 23, 2023
130
I had this talk with someone. He said that he's love reincarnation or to still be conscious in some way after death.

While I hardly disagree on that. The thought of having to keep living over and over again (in the case of reincarnation) is the worst idea ever. Never a stop to this horrible existence.

Being a ghost would be less awful but still something I wouldn't want. I need a way out. A way to stop existing. I don't want to be alive in anyway possible.

If I ctb I want it to be a permanent way of not existing.
I think I would rather reincarnate from the start than still exist somewhere with present consiousness:(. I just wonder what our choice and will has to do with what will happen… probably not much. For me the worst nightmare would be to just feel the same and be here next to my family looking at them and not being able to do anything as this would be no difference to what I have now .
 
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AnonymousL

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Apr 5, 2023
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I think I would rather reincarnate from the start than still exist somewhere with present consiousness:(. I just wonder what our choice and will has to do with what will happen… probably not much. For me the worst nightmare would be to just feel the same and be here next to my family looking at them and not being able to do anything as this would be no difference to what I have now .
What I wonder sometimes is if it matters if we are being buried underground or if we choose to burn our bodies into ashes.

Do you think that would have an impact?
 
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cosmic-freedom

Student
Mar 18, 2024
160
If I become a ghost,I would haunt my narcissistic male birth giver till the day he dies.I would literally scare him to death.He would live in fear,agony and pain like my mom and I do everyday.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
38,946
No, absolulety not, I despise existing as a conscious being, it just causes so much suffering and it's completely unnecessary anyway. To me consciousness is a tragic abomination and I don't want to experience anything, all I wish for is to be eternally unaware, I find so much comfort in the thought of non existence, it's beautiful to think of this existence permanently disappearing into nothingness. The only relief for me lies in death erasing all I knew, all that's relieving to me is the thought of all being forgotten about, under no circumstances would I ever wish to be conscious and aware.
 
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Ash’Girl

Ash’Girl

Girl, Interrupted
Apr 29, 2022
386
To be honest, we just don't know.
Eternal nothingness. Reincarnation. Transfer of energy to "source". Consciousness of knowledge of all things since life began on some weird time continuum where past present and future all merge and exist simultaneously. Everything leads to more questions. We can argue about philosophy versus science versus religion versus personal belief systems versus what we'd like it to look like til the cows come home but we just don't KNOW.

What science is able to prove or disprove in centuries to come will change what we know now, same as it's changed what we knew in centuries past.

I'm open to possibilities, I always have been. I know what I believe but this is largely based upon what brings me the most comfort to believe, and yes, I do hope I retain some level of consciousness after death, and that that consciousness is able to reconnect fully with the consciousness of loved ones who have already died. But what that looks like is very personal to me, and I'm aware of the arguments made in terms of psychology as to why I choose to think like that.

Don't care, it brings me some measure of peace in a hellish existence same as believing when we die we cease to exist brings other people some measure of peace.

I do think it's an interesting topic for debate but it's also one that has a LOT of strong and conflicting opinions. I think it's better to accept everyone is absolutely entitled to their beliefs and thought processes even if in direct opposition to our own. Life can be really shitty. I never begrudge people whatever small margin of comfort belief/faith or lack thereof may bring them regardless to my own opinions.
 
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Dark Window

Dark Window

Forest Wanderer
Mar 12, 2024
548
It 100% depends on the nature of the afterlife and how we experience it.

But I'm doubtful there is such a thing as an afterlife.

Afterlife was mainly created to cure fear of death and control the population.

Any idea we have of the afterlife is probably nothing like what it actually is, but it probably doesn't exist at all.
 
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mrelief82

Broken to 1000 pcs
Nov 23, 2023
130
If I become a ghost,I would haunt my narcissistic male birth giver till the day he dies.I would literally scare him to death.He would live in fear,agony and pain like my mom and I do everyday.
That's what I was thinking, haunt my narcissistic ex which I can't get freedom from
 
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cosmic-freedom

Student
Mar 18, 2024
160
That's what I was thinking, haunt my narcissistic ex which I can't get freedom from
I wonder if there are narcissists than we think.With their lack of empathy combined with abusive and controlling attitude, they pretend to be perfect in front of others.I am starting to think atleast 1 in 6 people are narcs at this rate.More male narcs than female ones too...
 
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hopeless08

Arcanist
Dec 8, 2023
492
I had heard that when you die a tragic death your spirit stays stuck in this world and you keep reliving the pain you felt before ctbing over and over again, that scared the shit out of me…
 
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livingwishtodie

livingwishtodie

why ?
Feb 22, 2024
38
I had heard that when you die a tragic death your spirit stays stuck in this world and you keep reliving the pain you felt before ctbing over and over again, that scared the shit out of me…
That's kind of true.
I've seen some videos where people who can talk to ghosts. Asked them questions about their afterlife. Tho communicating with them is dangerous and its hard to capture their voices.

But the only thing I know until now is that people in the afterlife are still the same as people here.
Some are trapped forever and others just make friends there.

Ghosts attach themselves to things too

But I dont know if they can travel places.

Like why do haunted places exist.
And mental asylums are still abandoned by governments.
 
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yxmux

yxmux

¥~¥
Apr 16, 2024
90
Depends honestly. If it were to mean that I'm reborn into a body and circumstances where pleasure outweighs suffering, I'd certainly like that. I really do feel that my life was robbed from me, and I wish I could have a do-over, starting out as a completely different person.

It would be entirely up to chance, sure, but I am just giving an opinion if it were to be the case. It's easy to believe that life in general is unconditionally negative when that's overwhelmingly what's you've felt your entire life since positive stimuli or pleasure is either virtually absent or negligible to even recognize as being a thing. That's not to say that it isn't a valid belief. We just want what we believe is in our best interest that we can grasp. We can grasp the absence of suffering, but the insurance of pleasure is so otherworldly to us that it's not really something we aspire for anymore.
 
hellispink

hellispink

poisonous
May 26, 2022
1,231
No. I am looking to die to kill my consciousness . Too much pain in it. It would be a nightmare being a ghost carrying these burdens
 
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hopeless08

Arcanist
Dec 8, 2023
492
That's kind of true.
I've seen some videos where people who can talk to ghosts. Asked them questions about their afterlife. Tho communicating with them is dangerous and its hard to capture their voices.

But the only thing I know until now is that people in the afterlife are still the same as people here.
Some are trapped forever and others just make friends there.

Ghosts attach themselves to things too

But I dont know if they can travel places.

Like why do haunted places exist.
And mental asylums are still abandoned by governments.
Exactly
 
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Astoria

Astoria

Member
Mar 31, 2024
25
I don't think I would dislike being a ghost. Taking away outside problems certainly wouldn't fix the damages done to me, but it would make things a bit better.
 
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bipbapbop

Experienced
Mar 7, 2024
276
Any sort of afterlife would be my greatest nightmare. I want to CTB to stop the pain of consciousness. I'm not sure what being a ghost would solve for me.
 
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Eudaimonic

Eudaimonic

I want to fade away.
Aug 11, 2023
341
It would depend on whether or not I could still suffer.
Ideally, though, I would like my consciousness to simply be extinguished.
 
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Ligottian

Elementalist
Dec 19, 2021
848
I want lights out when I die.
 
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sserafim

sserafim

brighter than the sun, that’s just me
Sep 13, 2023
9,013
Honestly, I've always wanted to be a ghost and haunt people. It would be like being invisible, and I already feel invisible anyways. I would prefer to be non-existent though
 
sickgirlzis

sickgirlzis

the most optimistic pessimist
Apr 17, 2024
51
being a ghost sounds kinda fun but freaky. I've always loved the concept of invisibility and that's kinda similar. I'd want to see what people say about me if I died honestly. but I might get bored. eternal darkness is what really scares me though. if it just goes dark... I don't know. that'd be weird. the thought of it makes me panic
 

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