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jexixa

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Apr 3, 2024
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if the doctor said you're going to die peacefully in 2 years, for how many of you will it still be worth trying to ctb sooner?

i myself am in a similar situation, and i wonder if should still try to ctb or just endure 2 years. don't get me wrong i don't want to live a year let alone two but if its guaranteed after 2 years then...maybe its somehow okay to wait?
 
strangelife

strangelife

Specialist
Feb 16, 2024
368
if the doctor said you're going to die peacefully in 2 years, for how many of you will it still be worth trying to ctb sooner?

i myself am in a similar situation, and i wonder if should still try to ctb or just endure 2 years. don't get me wrong i don't want to live a year let alone two but if its guaranteed after 2 years then...maybe its somehow okay to wait?
I'm wondering how it happened that you are guaranteed a peaceful death in 2 years, do you have a terminal illness? But death from disease can be painful.
 
Chronosphere

Chronosphere

Student
Jan 17, 2024
141
if the doctor said you're going to die peacefully in 2 years, for how many of you will it still be worth trying to ctb sooner?

i myself am in a similar situation, and i wonder if should still try to ctb or just endure 2 years. don't get me wrong i don't want to live a year let alone two but if its guaranteed after 2 years then...maybe its somehow okay to wait?
Would it really be peaceful?
 
strangelife

strangelife

Specialist
Feb 16, 2024
368
My decision to wait or not to wait would be primarily determined by the reason that causes CTB's desire, in my case I am not ready to wait 2 years
 
errorsinmypast

errorsinmypast

Wondering wtf and why
Apr 3, 2024
28
Hmmm, I'd be tempted to sit it out....in my case circumstances could rapidly change my mind but assuming all level and sound I'm voting for 2 years
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

She wished that she never existed...
Sep 24, 2020
34,153
In my case I don't have the option to peacefully die on my own terms as we exist in this hellish anti-suicide society where suicide is cruelly made so inaccessible. So if I knew I only had a couple of years until I'm finally free from this harmful, undesirable existence then I'd feel much less trapped. Under no circumstances would I ever want to suffer here and what fills me with dread and terrifies me is how this existence could potentially continue for decades, being able to die peacefully could only ever be something positive to me.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
7,591
I'd wait. It would be perfect actually- so long as I still had good enough health. If I didn't though, that would be awful. I'm sorry if you are suffering. But, if I knew my timeline, I could stop working a while beforehand and just enjoy things for a bit.
 
pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
1,780
I would suicide anyway. It's what I want to do . Plus there's no guarantee of a peaceful natural dying imo . Most natural dyings are extremely painful as in cancer or starvation.There's no guarantee tomorrow I won't fall into a trap of the worst unending constant unbearable pain.

Imo it's the only rational act I would have done in my life. All my life I've been doing what culture society told me to do . I want to undo the imposition myself. I want to escape the prison myself do one act in my life I wanted to do, on act of rebellion the ultimate rebellion and also a middle finger to the prolifers and to this evil suicide prohibition world and to life.

I will do it. Nothing is going stop
 
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iloveduster

iloveduster

Member
Jan 21, 2024
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Honestly, as much as painful those 2 years would be, I think I'd try my best to bear the pain of living. If you try to ctb, then there is a possibility of failing and becoming a vegetable. In a way, it feels more peaceful when your life has a "deadline." I wish it was possible to choose how long you wish to live.
 
Unknown21

Unknown21

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Apr 25, 2023
630
Why would I bother ctb since I will die peacefully after two years? As for me, I will live the two years with the people close to me and try to make good memories and enjoy the few things I love.
Unless I'm going to suffer those two years, in this case CTB would be better, because I'm going to suffer and it's unnecessary suffering.
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
323
I'd still ctb. I want to stop being tortured by people who "love" me. Another two years would just be hell. I want to be done.
 
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hopeless08

Arcanist
Dec 8, 2023
447
if the doctor said you're going to die peacefully in 2 years, for how many of you will it still be worth trying to ctb sooner?

i myself am in a similar situation, and i wonder if should still try to ctb or just endure 2 years. don't get me wrong i don't want to live a year let alone two but if its guaranteed after 2 years then...maybe its somehow okay to wait?
I would definitely wait the 2 years as it will be a guaranteed Peaceful death and time flies by, besides it's better then having your loved ones have to find you after ctb.
 
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Demian

Demian

Member
Mar 25, 2024
77
If I could get nembutal first, maybe I'd give it a try
 
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icenotok

New Member
Apr 4, 2024
4
they say be carful what you wish for, ive been wishing all my life since 8 years old and still nothing! ive had health issues i never visited the doctor for as im hoping i just go eventually but im older now and still nothing ๐Ÿฅบ looks like il have to do it myself then.
 
Chronicoverwhelm

Chronicoverwhelm

Student
Aug 13, 2022
129
There is no way I can endure another year or two. If I can just get my brain to work enough to get some final details sorted, I'm running for the bus in the next few weeks.
 
Dark Window

Dark Window

Experienced
Mar 12, 2024
235
Depends if CTB means were peaceful or not.
 
ctbcat

ctbcat

Yes, the everlasting contrast.
Jul 14, 2023
183
i'll still ctb before. i'm going tonight, actually, if SI doesn't kick me in the ass (been planning all yr)

got things i need to escape.

would be nice to have a 2 extra years, and maybe less of the shame that comes with doing it yourself. but i don't care for it. i just want to be gone. and i'm already this bad. i'm already..... honestly repulsive.
 
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usernamenoonecares

Member
Apr 18, 2024
30
if the doctor said I am going to die peacefully in 2 years, and it is relatively painless like no cancer or something else, I would enjoy the hack out of the time I have. Like I am tired and afraid of future . But since there is no future, I will just enjoy present. 2 years are relatively short anyway. I will try everything that I never get to try.
 
Eudaimonic

Eudaimonic

I want to fade away.
Aug 11, 2023
281
I think I'd choose to wait unless something changes drastically for the worst. Yes, I am miserable, but the risk of failure, at least at the moment (since I have no access to reliable methods and no way to safely attempt at all), is not worth it. Also, there's a significant chance of things improving If I can pull myself together, but it would still be to an unacceptably low degree.
 

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