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If you were given a choice, fully recover or peaceful end, which would you choose?
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Peaceful end, as much as I'd like to say otherwise I do not have anything I'd consider of value in my entire life. Unless you mean that I can have a whole new beginning, in which case I might reconsider this choice?
There is nothing for me to recover from if that makes sense
Only Non-existence forever can guarantee me never suffering pain so bad it's a trillion times worse than one can imagine.
why do i have to risk extreme torture ? that's what life / existence is to me .risking extreme torture for ridiculous meaningless fleeting pleasure addictions.
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Ah I personally want a peaceful end but if full recovery without hard work is possible I'm choosing that. Though in my environment I'll probably be fucked up again in no time lol.
I cannot envision any sort of future for myself. Saying so otherwise is simply lying. A peaceful end would be beautiful. A reprieve from my shattered heart, broken mind, and lost soul.
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I voted on full recovery only bc I've tried over and over to make it a reality and if I thought it was possible I would go with it 100%. Functionally all I can hope for is a peaceful conclusion.
"Full recovery" sounds great until you picture it:
Same flaws, same dents, same garbage, just not horribly depressed. The only way it works in my head is with a genie lamp. Wish one: Full on character customization screen for myself. Wish two: Instantly understand anyone's thoughts. And three…? I can't even figure that one out. Idk.
So yeah. Recovery as I am? Not even close to being an option. Recovery with magic? Maybe.
I didn't even need to think much. For me, life has always been just a mechanical biological process, where we follow a program. And I didn't create this concept, unlike what we usually do to try to find answers that don't exist. Life is what it is. I don't feel sick in any way that requires recovery. My view of life is based on facts and on the very history of humanity, since our ancestors. There is nothing here, just a repetition until we are annihilated by an indifferent mechanism.
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My first, gut reaction would be a peaceful end, but I step back and realize that I'm only seeing the situation this way because I am depressed. A full recovery sounds nice, but I'd question if it'd truly last, or if I'd end up back contemplating the end. In truth, I don't know which I'd prefer, both are rather tempting.
If I could choose, I would like to make a full recovery. I've lived in a state that I thought was full recovery and I absolutely loved it, before everything came crashing down spectacularly.
I'm so done with the mental health field as a whole, and I say this with 8 years of experience with various therapies and social services, and an involuntary hospitalization. I absolutely think others can find help with those resources, I'm just so sick and tired of trying. I've emptied so much time and energy into recovery, I'm so tired.
I truly can't imagine being fully recovered. But I would like to be. When hell freezes over I guess.
If full recovery means sustainable happiness, then yes. At this moment I genuinely already found happiness but relapse is more often than my happy duration. I both felt what is true happiness and what is true despair so- if I could feel happy again it would be nice.
No matter what all I could ever hope for is to peacefully cease existing and never suffer in this dreadful, cruel and torturous existence ever again, I just want to erase this existence I just always saw as the most terrible, dreadful mistake that only ever harms and tortures existing beings.
I don't understand what recovery would mean anyway as existence is the problem, if recovery means wanting the pain and torture of existing just to face the extreme agony of old age then I'd never wish for that especially as there is no limit as to how much one can be tortured, this existence truly is an abomination, there's just so much evil in existing, for me ceasing to exist would be the way to recover from being burdened with something as terrible and torturous as existing and peace really is all I hope for.
I'll always see the existence of life as the most terrible, devastating tragedy and the fact that humans impose this existence is so terrible and dreadful, to me non-existence is just all that's positive, every second in this existence is torture to be conscious, all that existence truly does is just cause harm, this existence never should had been imposed and to suffer in this existence really is the most terrible, undeserved punishment.
Peaceful end.
I don't think recovering is a real thing, I'm too old, too deformed and too delusional to recover from any of that. Better to put me down.
i am tempted to say peaceful end. i think thats what i want. just to rest and sleep because life is too much for me. but i dont know. even though i want to die i still dream of being a theatre actor and maybe i could be happy...i dont want to be famous or rich or anything. i just want to do theatre til the day i die whenever that is.
If by recovery meaning what's ailing me suddenly gets better and I feel better about my life and future, I'd choose that but it's not going to happen. & things will get worse eventually as the years go on and will want to die, I can't imagine suicidal thoughts ever leaving my brain. But there are things I wish I could have done but I guess I also need to be a different person lol. Probably should have just chosen peaceful end
Full recovery in the moment? With my luck, something happens again just a few days later, be it a loved one passing away, an accident that leaves me disabled, or a terminal illness that leaves me suffering for months. And I can think of many more, there are no guarantees.
And as long as my little girl is still alive, I don't deserve a peaceful ending either.
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