If you were diagnosed with a terminal illness how would you feel and what would you do?

[MicropBaldCurrycel]

I was just thinking about this this morning, being an unfit individual who eats junk and doesnt exercise for 10+years now im very sure im going to end up with cancer or heart failure..... but i thought to myself thats a blessing in disguise as i have no methods and i wouldnt feel guilty for suicide and leaving my dad behind and there wouldnt be stigma.

I would not seek treatment, just pain alleviation and mostly rest/sleep.

Put me on the hardcore pain killers.

id actually feel a sense of Euphoria waiting during those last few months, thunking to myself "yes im actually going to die!"

as fucked up as it sounds, this is the mind of a permanent depressed person with no other suicide methods and desperation.

 

[SuicidallyCurious]

Accelerate the timeline to CTB.

I might try some hard drugs which I never before have incorporated into my worldview

 

[MicropBaldCurrycel]

Accelerate the timeline to CTB.

I might try some hard drugs which I never before have incorporated into my worldview

hell yeah id for sure do strong heroin. nothing to lose right

 

[SuicidallyCurious]

hell yeah id for sure do strong heroin. nothing to lose right

I've always figured it must be pretty good if people are hooked on it . But I would never bring myself to do these things under normal circumstances because I don't view getting maybe a few weeks of increased quality of life worth sacrificing the rest of my life and health

 

[MicropBaldCurrycel]

I've always figured it must be pretty good if people are hooked on it . But I would never bring myself to do these things under normal circumstances because I don't view getting maybe a few weeks of increased quality of life worth sacrificing the rest of my life and health

yeah for sure i get you but if someone were suicidal or terminal and wanted to do it then in that case its understandable

 

[downndone2]

Get a prescription for methadone or F and benzos for my pain and anxiety, then "accidentally OD"

 

[its-about-time]

There are plenty of people here because they have a terminal illness, I feel it's sometimes difficult for them to understand a healthy person wishing for a terminal illness. But for those of us suicidal for other reasons, it feels like a great excuse to die with family and friends at your side.

I went through some testing last month, my doctor thought I might have cancer. I was thrilled. I hoped desperately that I did. I would have chosen to keep it a secret and not treat it (except for treating symptoms for comfort). Would've told people only when it was getting dire, then probably still CTB at the end when it became difficult to tolerate. Felt like the perfect plan. Turned out I didn't have cancer, hard to describe how disappointed I was. Funny enough, a cancer diagnosis probably would've extended my lifespan by quite a bit compared to my more immediate plans.

 

[Bigpink]

Be glad the matter is settled and get the necessary pain relief

 

[DerTod]

I would feel great relief because then i would be 100% sure that i want to CTB. No more doubting.

 

[Krieger]

That would give me motivation tbh. I would buy a gun and end it.

 

[Darkover]

simple end it going to anyway SN or N what ever i get first looking like sn from IC

 

[Dot]

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[Wizard999666]

It would be a great relief to be diagnosed with a terminal illness as I'm mainly here due to family, and this would be a more "acceptable" way to go. I would just end it immediately depending on how long I had left, instead of staying around and suffering. I can't even imagine having those kinds of issues on top of what I already have.

 

[Efilismislife]

Theres no drug that can alleviate all pain hence why people with illness are sufferings everyday for long

There are plenty of people here because they have a terminal illness, I feel it's sometimes difficult for them to understand a healthy person wishing for a terminal illness. But for those of us suicidal for other reasons, it feels like a great excuse to die with family and friends at your side.

I went through some testing last month, my doctor thought I might have cancer. I was thrilled. I hoped desperately that I did. I would have chosen to keep it a secret and not treat it (except for treating symptoms for comfort). Would've told people only when it was getting dire, then probably still CTB at the end when it became difficult to tolerate. Felt like the perfect plan. Turned out I didn't have cancer, hard to describe how disappointed I was. Funny enough, a cancer diagnosis probably would've extended my lifespan by quite a bit compared to my more immediate plans.

Same as how healthy people dont know what is like to suffer from illness.

Or mental illness being seen as trivial by healthy
people. Maybe because they never been through it. It would be different if they suffer from it

As there are people who wants to ctb due to sufferings of illness

 

[kosameAmagai]

i plan to ctb before i hit my 30's even if everything in my life went right, so id probably wont even care

 

[WorthlessTrash]

Not get it treated and possibly CTB earlier. I'd feel relieved, though.

 

[drseuss]

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@MicropBaldCurrycel

Other than the relief that SI (Survival Instinct) would no longer be an issue, I would not want to say more out of respect for the people on SS who have a terminal illness and wanted to live.

If someone told me that they wished that they had the same issues as me that make my life difficult, then I would feel upset by it so would not want to do the same to them.

 

[drseuss]

thank you for the translation , was that text speak?/ lol

No

 

[Intelligent_Panic99]

Sometimes I think bipolar is terminal and if I had something like cancer I wouldn't have to die alone. But I would also be terrified of a physical terminal Illness because it would mean more pain than my method and no ability to decide when to go.

 

[FuneralCry]

It does sound horrible dying from an illness, but I guess it would mean that I would not have to go through the process of ctb and deal with the fear of failing the method. I am trapped in this world as ctb is so difficult. I think I would be relieved that my suffering will be coming to an end. The ideal situation for me would be to be diagnosed with the illness and then get euthanasia straight after.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

thank you for the translation , was that text speak?/ lol

Their bio tells you why they type like that.

 

[outrider567]

Well, my brother is going thru this right now, stage 4 lung cancer(as well as a heart attack 5 years ago and COPD and yet he is still smoking)---As for me, I don't intend to be around long enough to get any more medical tests or blood tests--My last blood test was taken 15 months ago, they check about 50 things, and found nothing abnormal, also had ultrasounds and chest x-rays, EKG's, and $9,000 worth of heart tests, all is quite good, normal and healthy---but my mental state, going on four months now, continues to break down and depressed, the sheer realization of the pointlessness of life without her, is more glaringly apparent each day I go on

 

[MicropBaldCurrycel]

Their bio tells you why they type like that.

thanks for telling me shit i feel like an ahole now i didnt know and deleted my comments.....

Well, my brother is going thru this right now, stage 4 lung cancer(as well as a heart attack 5 years ago and COPD and yet he is still smoking)---As for me, I don't intend to be around long enough to get any more medical tests or blood tests--My last blood test was taken 15 months ago, they check about 50 things, and found nothing abnormal, also had ultrasounds and chest x-rays, EKG's, and $9,000 worth of heart tests, all is quite good, normal and healthy---but my mental state, going on four months now, continues to break down and depressed, the sheer realization of the pointlessness of life without her, is more glaringly apparent each day I go on

I feel this way too about my mom, my life ended the day she died.
i cannot get over it or deal with it.
thats exactly what i was thinking myself this morning, im quite unhealthy and think maybe i have some disease.

no exercise and eating junk and alot of sugar for most my life just sitting on the pc all day.

no appetite, bad stomach pain, hiccups, acid reflux , bloating, blood in toilet .

i think its pancreatic cancer or colon.

but i realized i shouldnt worry because its a win win situation either way.

im going for ultrasound/scopes next month.

 

[Dot]

thanks for telling me shit i feel like an ahole now i didnt know and deleted my comments.....

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[MicropBaldCurrycel]

D/ nt nd 2 wrry - mny ppl r cnfusd 2 b-gn wth

sorry my friend ❤

 

[Dot]

 

[sueoffside]

Relieved and I'd not seek treatment

 

[MicropBaldCurrycel]

Relieved and I'd not seek treatment

SAME

 

[lostontheroad]

Sometimes I think bipolar is terminal and if I had something like cancer I wouldn't have to die alone. But I would also be terrified of a physical terminal Illness because it would mean more pain than my method and no ability to decide when to go.

You have bipolar? How bad is it to live with?

 

[RN12]

Accelerate the timeline to CTB.

I might try some hard drugs which I never before have incorporated into my worldview

try MDMA, pretty harmless, not addictive and you wil feel beautiful and fulfilled with love
don't touch the uppers like cocain and meth, it's no fun at all

But i guess you will feel so full of love you won't ctb anymore lol