dreaming_of_pearl
I miss you I love you I’m sorry
- Jun 10, 2023
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Posting this here surely someone else thought of this but I havnt found anything anywhere on this, perhaps it's being censored. I noticed this because my wonderful GF who is more healed and willing to heal brought up how I tend to have black and white thinking. I noticed and tried to change it because everyone says you must change black and white thinking.
But the thing is when you do change it your caught in a cycle of the world genuinely operates in bianary, black and white especially with those who have money and power.
Let me break it down simply for somone who sees this in the future.
When you were a child and you only finished your homework halfway, and you cried to your teacher "I tried I did as much as I could" what do they tell you?
"You either do or you don't, and you didn't."
You'll sit there crying saying how you tried and you are trying for everything for all your school tasks how your trying not to cry, trying not to be upset. But your simply told that it's either one way or the other, do or don't, crying or not crying.
It's black and white.
Your job employer, your teacher, your partner, the world. You could try your hardest to reach a goal an expectation that that have. You could break your bones, break your mind and your body,…bleed to make it happen. You could break your back over it all
But as soon as you cry and say you tried and you fell short you tried your hardest you tried so hard this time time yo-
"You either do or you don't there is no try."
Now that we have established this I ask the question, why are bpd individuals forced by others to try and seek help for this thinking, when others use this "it either is or isn't" it is morally and socially acceptable but when bpd havers say and ask "that it's either one way or the other" suddenly WE are the scapegoats of society we are evil abusive we belong on r/bpdlovedones ect.
And I came to the conclusion this morning that the issue isn't us I think the issue is this is the way the world works but everyone wants to play by acceptable playing cards and pretend that there is a try. But is there really a try if you are told THERE. IS. NO. TRY.
They want us to spend so much money trying to get better because of how empathetic we are to others we want to make people happy and conform to their rules. They know more than anything we are just the little kids who didn't fucking fit in like the rest of them and we still don't. They pit us up against other bpd and people of that nature making it a "recovery battle" so they can shrink us even more in our "healed state" so we will have the illusion that we are better then everyone and so humble while we ignore our inner child inside.
They want us to be pushovers. So we can have FrEiNdS and shit but here's the thing.
They dont want to be freinds with what we really are the true nature screaming beauty pain art and insanity of us. They want the watered down easy to deal with person. So they can talk about their sad shit while we act as the groups pin cushion again. You ever notice that when your talking about how genuinely painful it is to exist with bpd it's bad but when your freind talks about their traumatic stuff it's fine?
They are all in on it. It makes sense society is conditioned to let certain kinds of people become the world pin cushion while also being the world's scapegoat. Their reckless actions like showing up to fight someone at their work. Good and heroic. Our actions of harming OURSELVES and not being ashamed of it because we are NOT HURTING ANOTHER INDIVIDUAL with our anger and sadness. BAD EVIL HORRIBLE PERSON.
I'm gonna send this to people I know please let me know if yall agree but litterally the world genuinely is trying to use bpd individuals as the worlds punching bag for abusers and rapists. While simultaneously shaming us to be quiet and content and to ignore the human desire to be avenged and safe. They want us to sit idly by and live with guilt and shame that the true burning flame inside us for victory is bad. They want us to see that because we are aware the world operates in black and white is bad they want us to think we are horrible people so they can tell us how wrong and gross we are for thinking that. They want us to think we are great people and we were just abused just for them to tell us we are horrible people.
Bpd individuals especially with autism have been designed as the world's pin cushion, circus, and scapegoat for centuries. They just don't want us to know
Call me crazy fine but I can see it now we are all carfully monitored so we are forced to think we are bad no matter what we do.
But the thing is when you do change it your caught in a cycle of the world genuinely operates in bianary, black and white especially with those who have money and power.
Let me break it down simply for somone who sees this in the future.
When you were a child and you only finished your homework halfway, and you cried to your teacher "I tried I did as much as I could" what do they tell you?
"You either do or you don't, and you didn't."
You'll sit there crying saying how you tried and you are trying for everything for all your school tasks how your trying not to cry, trying not to be upset. But your simply told that it's either one way or the other, do or don't, crying or not crying.
It's black and white.
Your job employer, your teacher, your partner, the world. You could try your hardest to reach a goal an expectation that that have. You could break your bones, break your mind and your body,…bleed to make it happen. You could break your back over it all
But as soon as you cry and say you tried and you fell short you tried your hardest you tried so hard this time time yo-
"You either do or you don't there is no try."
Now that we have established this I ask the question, why are bpd individuals forced by others to try and seek help for this thinking, when others use this "it either is or isn't" it is morally and socially acceptable but when bpd havers say and ask "that it's either one way or the other" suddenly WE are the scapegoats of society we are evil abusive we belong on r/bpdlovedones ect.
And I came to the conclusion this morning that the issue isn't us I think the issue is this is the way the world works but everyone wants to play by acceptable playing cards and pretend that there is a try. But is there really a try if you are told THERE. IS. NO. TRY.
They want us to spend so much money trying to get better because of how empathetic we are to others we want to make people happy and conform to their rules. They know more than anything we are just the little kids who didn't fucking fit in like the rest of them and we still don't. They pit us up against other bpd and people of that nature making it a "recovery battle" so they can shrink us even more in our "healed state" so we will have the illusion that we are better then everyone and so humble while we ignore our inner child inside.
They want us to be pushovers. So we can have FrEiNdS and shit but here's the thing.
They dont want to be freinds with what we really are the true nature screaming beauty pain art and insanity of us. They want the watered down easy to deal with person. So they can talk about their sad shit while we act as the groups pin cushion again. You ever notice that when your talking about how genuinely painful it is to exist with bpd it's bad but when your freind talks about their traumatic stuff it's fine?
They are all in on it. It makes sense society is conditioned to let certain kinds of people become the world pin cushion while also being the world's scapegoat. Their reckless actions like showing up to fight someone at their work. Good and heroic. Our actions of harming OURSELVES and not being ashamed of it because we are NOT HURTING ANOTHER INDIVIDUAL with our anger and sadness. BAD EVIL HORRIBLE PERSON.
I'm gonna send this to people I know please let me know if yall agree but litterally the world genuinely is trying to use bpd individuals as the worlds punching bag for abusers and rapists. While simultaneously shaming us to be quiet and content and to ignore the human desire to be avenged and safe. They want us to sit idly by and live with guilt and shame that the true burning flame inside us for victory is bad. They want us to see that because we are aware the world operates in black and white is bad they want us to think we are horrible people so they can tell us how wrong and gross we are for thinking that. They want us to think we are great people and we were just abused just for them to tell us we are horrible people.
Bpd individuals especially with autism have been designed as the world's pin cushion, circus, and scapegoat for centuries. They just don't want us to know
Call me crazy fine but I can see it now we are all carfully monitored so we are forced to think we are bad no matter what we do.
Thank you so much, this made me smile today
