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CantDoIt

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Jul 18, 2024
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What I asked! If you were to ctb and you were given the chance to redo your entire current life, from beginning to wherever you are now, would you take it? Or do you prefer the void, the afterlife, or an alternative reincarnation?

Personally I'm not 100% sure, I guess I'm like 50/50 on it.
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
10,143
If I could live my life again with the knowledge I have now and if I can use that knowledge to not make the mistakes that caused my big failure again I would live it again!
 
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TomorrowNeverComes

Member
Jul 25, 2024
8
It'd just be another instance that reminds me that I can never do anything right the first time. I'd probably decline.
 
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esistzeit

🎶 Will my soul ever rest in peace? 🎶
Jul 17, 2024
20
Funny that you ask this because lately I have been fantasizing about going back to the age of 5 after dying.

I know I would be able to fix every single problem that haunts my life today. The knowledge makes all the difference. How the duck was I supposed to know what I had to do? Now I know. Now I can make it 1000 times better.

Non-existence is also super fine but there's so much that I did not do that I feel like I didn't live at all. Will I really die without ever feeling the love of a woman? It doesn't sit right with me, it hurts too much.

But that would only make sense if I could keep my memory. If I lost it then the same story would repeat itself.

Either way, my pain will end and that's what matters.
 
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TakeMeToHeaven

Member
Jul 25, 2024
45
I would still be autistic and mentally disabled
 
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voudebase

Member
Jul 6, 2024
13
Certainly i'll take it. I love the life, my problem is, i used drugs that fucked my brain and i'm with chronical illness because of this. If i can back in time, i'll fix this
 
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Beyond_Repair

Beyond_Repair

Disheartened Ghost
Oct 27, 2023
349
I don't think so. The problem is with me, my brain, and my compatibility with the world, not necessarily my choices.

Bring me to the void
 
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avalonisburning

Womp womp womp
May 12, 2024
48
I'm going to sound like a cornball when I say this because of how overplayed and prosaic it is, but whenever I think of "what if" scenarios like this, I always come back to:

"If I could start again, a million miles away, I would keep myself, I would find a way."

It doesn't matter if I get a second chance, and where or when that second chance is. I'm never going to change who I am fundamentally and I'll mess it up again. It's nothing but wish fulfillment.
 
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dolemitedrums

Specialist
Jun 12, 2024
310
Yep, big time.
 
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Randy Savage

Randy Savage

“Macho Man”
Jul 23, 2024
32
Not ever. The only good part of my life is my childhood, and that's just because I knew so little about the person I would grow up to be
Maybe I would go back and buy bitcoin though
 
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QueenInsomnia

Member
Jul 21, 2024
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I would. The biggest event that I feel totally fucked up my entire life was being sexually assaulted as a kid. I was too scared to say anything, I felt like I couldn't trust anyone, and it made me turn inward and isolate. Now I wish that I had kicked that man in his balls the first time he attempted to assault me, scratched his eyes out, screamed, and told anyone who would listen what had just happened. Next, I fucked up my credit from a young age, and I wish someone had taught me back then the importance of handling finances and treating credit with more respect than I did. There were so many things that I wanted to explore or do but was just too scared to do. I was too scared of other people's opinions and what they would think of me. Too scared to stand out and be seen.
 
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enduringwinter

enduringwinter

flower, water
Jun 20, 2024
164
No... I cannot bear abuse and absolute poverty again...
 
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whywere

Visionary
Jun 26, 2020
2,758
I am like @CantDoIt as it would be a 50/50. Some of my business decisions would not be a do over. However, getting married then divorced from a gambling addict would be a HUGE do over.

Wishing everyone here a great day!

Walter
It'd just be another instance that reminds me that I can never do anything right the first time. I'd probably decline.
You are a wonderfully kind soul. I REALLY got a feeling of that. You ARE a winner, as having you as family here makes my days so much better.

Just that aspect alone makes you do the right thing and never ever let anyone tell you differently.

Lots of hugs, love and the knowledge that you help me each and every day on here, thank you so much.

Walter
 
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rozeske

Maybe I am the problem
Dec 2, 2023
3,307
It wouldn't be the worest thing as long as i still reserve the right to opt out if it doesn't work out again but I'm not sure I would wanna make my self go through the early stages of my life again.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
35,491
No, under absolutely no circumstances would I ever wish to exist, to me human existence is such a futile and torturous burden that I see as completely unnecessary, undesirable and just leads to meaningless suffering. If it's up to me I'd choose to erase my existence so it's like I never existed at all, I never want to experience anything instead all I wish for is to be at true, permanent peace for all eternity, I simply wish to be non-existent with this hopeless and cruel existence that has caused me nothing but pain to be all forgotten about. I find a lot of comfort in eternal nothingness, in fact it's all that comforts me, to be unconscious for all eternity is certainly all I wish for.
 
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Aprilfarewell4

Specialist
Apr 9, 2024
388
Yes and the impossibility of such a thing makes my own death even more tragic. I really f***** up and I have to die as a result. Accidentally killed myself. Some things are just too far gone, and I did it to myself.
 
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glossble

glossble

homesick ⭒
Apr 14, 2023
64
Maybe I could fix a few mistakes, but I can still make new ones 😂 After all, I don't know everything. So no, I just don't want this life at all
 
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Raven2

Raven2

Specialist
Dec 1, 2022
322
Yes if I had the knowledge I have now I would be able to make different choices that has led to my shitshow life now.

Not many regrets just a few things I would like to have changed to lead my down a different path.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
8,193
No. Most of the worst shit that happened in my life was out of my control- bereavements, coming into contact with a (suspected) narcissist in childhood. I don't think knowledge would have helped.
 
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kinderbueno

kinderbueno

Waiting at the bus stop
Jun 22, 2024
71
I'm 50/50 like many people here. On one hand I could undo all my mistakes and I'd be able to avoid some bad events, but on the other hand I'd make new mistakes and there'd be new obstacles to face. Also I'd most likely be depressed with my current knowledge of how fucked up this world can be
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
20,327
I unfortunately have not retained much useful knowledge in my life. If I were to run the same life decisions again I would likely either make the same choices or worse ones or I would stall my life even further with indecisiveness. So no. I would not take this chance. I don't trust myself with my life now, why would I trust this stupid person with it again after he already screwed up?
 
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etherealspring

etherealspring

can someone just kill me already
Mar 27, 2024
149
I would not take it, and I'd much rather be sent into the void. I'm a very sensitive person, I think I'd still live my life feeling like I'll never be good enough. I haven't really lived long enough to learn anything useful anyway... so ultimately, I don't think reliving my life would change much about the person I am today
 
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LaVieEnRose

LaVieEnRose

Angelic
Jul 23, 2022
4,058
I'd still be autistic but I would have liked to avoid certain trauma.
 
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locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
6,484
I'll pass. Still wouldn't be good enough.
 
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Ironborn

Ironborn

Experienced
Jan 29, 2024
204
Sure I'd give it one more go, I'd be interested to see if I could make things turn out better.
I'm convinced I'm cursed though so I'll probably just make it worse haha.
 
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CantDoIt

Member
Jul 18, 2024
61
Sure I'd give it one more go, I'd be interested to see if I could make things turn out better.
I'm convinced I'm cursed though so I'll probably just make it worse haha.
God I feel this, it's like every decision I've made in my life was formulated perfectly to end up badly
 
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LiveOrganization97

LiveOrganization97

I wish I was like you - easily amused
Jul 27, 2024
15
I'd run to get help as fast I could as early as I could. I wouldn't get involved with the wrong people. I think so. Yeah.
 
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sos

sos

Student
Jul 22, 2024
151
yes and no

tough question ..

changing one moment could lead to missing out on another moment

sure life sucks but there are some moments that i'd want to relive and not miss out on
 
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Minsu

Minsu

Suicidal korean girl 🇰🇷🏳️‍🌈
Jan 17, 2023
475
No, I've tried literally everything to cope with my anxiety and depression and nothing has worked. So that would be the same
 
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ClownWorld2023

Arcanist
Sep 18, 2023
443
Yes, but only if there is an option to "fast forward" through certain things.

I wouldn't want to re-experience school again, being in a class filled with clowns.
Or how about those awful PE classes? Imagine re-living all that again.
 
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