if you had 10 million right now would you still consider CTB?

[Chronicoverwhelm]

I might put it off for a year or two.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

Yes. maybe I could travel to South Korea and try to reinvigorate myself into my hobbies, but the dysphoria would still be there, the trauma of not being born AFAB would still be there, and the jealousy would still consume me. At best, it may delay my CTB by about a year, but I would still CTB eventually.

 

[makethepainstop]

I would still CTB, but God help anyone who ever crossed me.

 

[Rairii]

I feel like momentarily the money would hold off the suicidal ideations as I could finally travel like I've always wanted to, I could finally afford to dress the way I want, see my favorite band, etc. Yet all of that would soon grow stale and I'd be back with my own brain which would eventually lead me to CTB. I would at least try and get every type of treatment for my chronic conditions and PTSD before I go, in hopes that maybe since I was wealthy I'd be able to afford worthwhile treatment that could maybe make the want for CTB to go away.

 

[Done44]

Yes, but it would probably give me some extra time to try some alternative ways to make my life liveable. However, in the end, I don't think it would solve the problem. So I don't think it'd cause me to be able to live my life until natural death.

 

[UtopianElephant]

The neighborhood eugenicist. As long as you're not forcibly sterilizing people, tbh, it's all good.


I feel kind of bad for your pets - if they knew you were going to off yourself as soon as they passed away, I think it would distress them quite a bit.

As for me, I'd probably still want to CTB. $10M would make it substantially easier, though - there are a lot more methods open at that level. I could try hiring a hitman on myself or something.

"there are a lot more methods open at that level. I could try hiring a hitman on myself or something."

Oof, I wish I could share your sentiments there, but instead I will say that you would need to be more cautious than ever if you received a windfall of 10m. You would probably need to hire a team of various kinds of experts, as well as bodyguards/ Otherwise, if you managed to hire a hitman, you would have no guarantee he would be the professional and silent kind, who works quietly from a distance with a sniper rifle.

It probably would be a lot easier for you to instead get your hands on some drugs or something.

 

[Snatsbats]

Probably for a couple years. Cocaine and hookers

 

[GettingOut]

Money cannot stop a progressive disease that attacks the spinal cord which causes severe chronic pain. Neither can it erase childhood ptsd, narcissists who I depend on for medicine cause I can't work and 3rd world country don't support disabled.

It will only attract "false friends" who wouldn't care about me as a person any way. If friends don't stick to my side here when I have no money, need help and love. I definitely don't want want money leeches!

 

[princess-oph]

yes
never mind i forgot about coke, i would go a bender first

 

[mdmd500]

This is a really good question and I honestly don't know what my answer is. I think yes it would make life easier to not worry about money in my case, but we've also witnessed many rich people like Robin Williams ctb so who knows.

 

[GasMonkey]

I'd CTB anyway.

 

[Doom]

no, i would drug myself everyday, i wouldnt feel sadness anymore

rich people who ctb are scumbags, why note donate their money to someone who wants to live

 

[SpiroSundae]

I would definitely put it off for a little while, for the sheer reason that I would do a FUCK TON of drugs

 

[SilentSuicidal]

Yeah I would, I'd give it to my family.

 

[Hollowman]

If you're offering I'll take it and let you know

 

[Illegal Preclear]

The only thing 10 Million dollars would make easier for me is being able to secure a decent shotgun less than legally (even here in Burgerland there is no state that will allow a person with 13 psych hospitalizations to even look at a gun). Being able to sit in my chair and put a gun in my mouth feels so much comfier than plan B if I never get hold of a firearm - railroad tracks. 10 Million dollars can't rewire a brain that is so permanently damaged by psych drugs it cannot feel a thing anymore (and not in a good way). There can even come a point where your brain physcially becomes so messed up street drugs don't even work anymore. I know. I've reached it. I think that's a bitter truth for every chronic disease sufferer on here - especially those in the realm of dementia. Money can't do a thing for you except make your passing more comfortable.

 

[rockyraccoon]

I'd definitely put it off if I had 10 million. I wouldn't have to work anymore and I could spend all my time making music and have the money to market it and grow my fan base. I could go on a months long vacation to the Caribbean or Japan, maybe buy a bunch of hot escorts or something.

Money would solve a lot of problems and open up more opportunities.

 

[HelloIMustBeGoing]

I have 10 million and as soon as my cat dies get me that greyhound ticket and ALL ABOARD!

 

[fallenflower]

Absolutely. Although I'd get some solace in leaving my family some financial assistance, I'd still be as determined to die as I have been. CTB is not a fleeting idea, born from being broke financially, or any specific thing. CTB is my door to freedom that I've had in my head since childhood. CTB is my way out of this hellish life. Money comes and goes.. dealing with life.. well that will only go when I finally get the guts to pull the trigger.

 

[Unending]

It would definitely make it easier to endure more of life but unfortunately I don't think it would change anything permanently.

 

[mateodolores]

Without a doubt. I'd pay for a better, quicker method to ctb and the rest of the money will be given to my loved ones and the needy. Nothing on this planet is worth the pain and despair I've been through and that I've watched others go through.

 

[Darkover]

would only speed up my departure but i'd probably hang around for awhile to get high on drugs

 

[releasespieces]

I'd have some fun for a year and then help a heaping ton of people like us leave this floating rotten ball in peace. Nembutal for everyone!

 

[Prescott241]

If I had 10 million, I would NOT CTB. I would use $700,000 to buy a house in a nice part of my city, put 5 million into an S&P 500 index fund, 1 million into a normal checking account, and the rest into real estate. I would have a new lease on life figuratively and literally.

 

[theboy]

yes

 

[autistocracy]

Absolutely not. The lack of money (and the ability to consistently work full-time) is the cause of like 80% of my problems. I wouldn't even know what to do with myself, I'd be so happy.

 

[jessisme]

No

 

[Enemy of Evolution]

No sir. If I had 10,000,000 money I will not die till it's gone.

 

[Disappointered]

I feel like it still wouldn't resolve everything so I'm also in the category of "yes but the windfall would delay it" or "I'd have fun first and then still ctb". If I was able to use it to restore my health and find a respectable, useful position in society that I was happy with, the rest of my life would also probably get a lot better and I'd probably die a natural death. But I'm not sure any amount of money could buy those things.

 

[Twntysvn]

I'll buy me some n, and then the rest i give it up to idk, family maybe