if you had 10 million right now would you still consider CTB?

[trizzy]

for being chronically ill and disabled. I would give it to charity and see good things done with the money. and in the end I would consider CTB after seeing the good being done with the money.

 

[FuneralCry]

Yes of course I would. Nothing could ever possibly make me wish to exist in this world and I would always be suicidal no matter what happens. There is no value in enduring endless days just to suffer and eventually deteriorate from old age. Life is a terrible and unnecessary concept and I don't want to have to experience anything, I just wish for permanent non existence. To die solves all problems after all, and the thing that has always been a problem for me is life itself, rather than specific things that if taken away I would want to continue existing. Only death could bring me the relief and rest that I wish for, to no longer exist will always be superior to any kind of life.

There is also the fact that money cannot always remove the cause of what makes us suffer. It cannot prevent all health problems and after all many rich people have ctb. If I had all that money, all that it would be worth spending it on is an ideal and peaceful suicide method.

 

[iwillforyou]

I would try to clean up some things in the lives of those I care for— even though I maybe arguably shouldn't. Would invest in several communities aka the youth aka the future and hope they had better experiences here than I. And I would put some aside for my perfect kitty, who has kept me from doing it before because I don't want to leave her fated to be unloved and miserable as I have been.

I would search for another way to get to the love of my life who died. And if I couldn't find it, I'd take myself home to the Islands and ctb there, while the colors saturate my eyes and mind one last time, and end dropping into the sea.

There's only one thing in this life that's ever given me enough hope to maybe see the sun rise all my possible days, a person, one single man— a man who was truly good and kind and bright, who lit up the world wherever he encountered it, even me, and he was swiftly taken.

As it stands, I will likely die in the streets, where I am now. And that seems …like stagnant poetry. Akin with almost all the rest, save him.

 

[jodes2]

That would be awesome. I'd do so much drugs!!! That would be fine. I could be quite happy with that much money. But being sober is miserable. Drugs really do make things better.

 

[dev]

That would be awesome. I'd do so much drugs!!! That would be fine. I could be quite happy with that much money. But being sober is miserable. Drugs really do make things better.

Only for a while. It comes back to bite you and makes things a lot worse in the long run. Speaking from experience....

But, to answer the topic starter. It wouldn't make a difference. I've had it with this life....

 

[ikadasui]

Money does in fact fix most of your problems so for me at least no. When I was getting 1200 bucks twice a month and not forced to work, I may have still bee miserable but life was extremely tolerable! Who would of thought right that I mean that's totally crazy having your needs met and not being enslaved could help give a positive outlook?!

 

[Anonymus]

I don't have that much money by any means, but I have my basic needs covered and I don't feel any better for having them.
Give me resources of another kind that allow me to substantially improve my life in general in all its aspects and I'll forget, but money alone doesn't solve anything if I have to stay locked up at home suffering what I don't should suffer

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No tincs tants diners ni de bon trós, però tinc les necessitats bàsiques cobertes i no em trobo pas millor pel fet de tenir-les.
Dona'm recursos d'un altre tipus que em permetin millorar substancialment la meva vida en general en totes les seves vessants i m'oblidaré, però només amb diners no soluciono pas res si m'he de quedar tancat a casa patint el que no hauría de patir.

 

[DeathBecomesMe_2021]

Yes yes yes absolutely yes. Nothing on this planet can convince me to stay.

I'll give the money away to conservation/animal and other charities since it'll be of no use to me.

 

[hungry_ghost]

Hell no, I'd be doing whatever I wanted to with that financial security.

I would travel, and see beautiful places.

I'd be holed up in a beautiful house living luxuriously and would no longer have to be considered a loser.

 

[Pluto]

I have a sneaking suspicion the mods won't be giving this suggestion the green light. Happy to be proven wrong.

 

[fettuccinenoodle]

for being chronically ill and disabled. I would give it to charity and see good things done with the money. and in the end I would consider CTB after seeing the good being done with the money.

Yes. 10 mill probably would not fix my issues as they are not finacial

 

[Rounded Agony]

10 million what? Units of currency? Which currency? (I had a million once, but it was only yen. Still cool to see the number in my bank book). Maybe you mean 10 million cats, which would be pretty cool, though I think I'd need a lot of help to take care of them. Or actually good friends, which would be nice but overwhelming I think, since I try to be generous with my time and I would not have enough. Unless...

10 million years to live?! Sounds like a fucking curse, but maybe I'd park myself on a mountaintop and wait until I was old enough that the years rolled by like minutes (I often wonder how things that can be as ancient as trees perceive time). Or 10 million days to relive over and over (not in the current shitty-trapped-life way, but the zany godlike Groundhog Day way). But that's...27,378.5 years. Dear lord, I do not want any one day to last that long.

I'm exhausted and running out of other hypothetical things that 10 million of might be interesting. In any case, a sudden windfall of 10 million whatevers would certainly be interesting and give me something to engage with while I hum and haw about my exit, seeing as I don't feel ready now. I'd be sure to try and turn whatever it was into enough coin to get me to Switzerland and pay for euthanasia though, you can be sure of that.

Also why is this in forum suggestions lol. Do you have ten million of something to give away and the one who gives the best answer will be the lucky winner? I think I blew my chance being a smart/dumbass...

 

[outrider567]

Yes I would still CTB if I got $10 million--Neither my girlfriend or my brother are here on Earth anymore, so without sharing it with them, it would just be a pointless gift amongst my pointless life

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

I would retire in comfort

 

[Forever Sleep]

I always wonder what these kinds of 'if you had money' posts are getting at. (Sorry- don't mean to sound agressive- there are many on here...) I guess it's a question we all ask ourselves to be fair- 'Is there anything in the world that could save me?' If we are lucky to have our health and our loved ones, the next one likely is money.

So- I have maybe 80% health, not that many loved ones left but kind of used to being alone now. Yes- a huge amount of money would make a big difference to me. Not sure it would put me off CTB indefinitely but I would certainly hang around for longer- with less stress and in comfort. Does that make me 'luckier' than a lot of people here- yes- and I'm genuinely sad for those suffering. Does it make me less 'genuinely' suicidal- maybe.

Am I likely to get ten million pounds (I inserted my own currency) any time soon? 'No.' Any time in my lifetime then? 'No.' So- are my 'problems' really more fixable because many of them 'could' be solved with 10 million pounds? I'd say 'no' because all that money is out of reach.

Would I exchange 10 million pounds for my health or the few loved ones left? 'No.' Health and loved ones still trump wealth.

 

[ZRA]

i will put the money to put my ideology to work. which is, educating the intellectually/healthwise struggling people to consider not reproducing. a toxic and narcissistic thing that is ingrained into every person born is "spread your seeds".kids should be educated to think for the greater good. if my adhd dad didnt have me. now i wouldnt have to hurt myself so bad to kill myself. dont be offended and report me. just my thoughts. basically i just want lesser suffering for living things.

The neighborhood eugenicist. As long as you're not forcibly sterilizing people, tbh, it's all good.

I have over $10M ... and I still absolutely want to CTB. It lets me live with a little less stress and comfort while waiting for my pets to live out their natural lives and for my time to come. I know God as a sense of humor because I got this money after my physical situation ensured I would never derive any joy from it. I do think when I was younger and healthier it might have changed my desire to CTB my entire life ... if not for a short period.

I feel kind of bad for your pets - if they knew you were going to off yourself as soon as they passed away, I think it would distress them quite a bit.

As for me, I'd probably still want to CTB. $10M would make it substantially easier, though - there are a lot more methods open at that level. I could try hiring a hitman on myself or something.

 

[nochu]

i'd give it all to my loved ones before departing

 

[BipolarExpress]

I'd be less likely to do it, that's for sure. I'd be able to retire, move to a different country, get the services I need and shut out most of the world.

 

[niiina]

To be very honest I wouldn't ctb anymore.

 

[yukito]

Spend it all with only my close friends and family, when everything is almost gone, i'll go to somewhere where Assisted CTB is being offered.

 

[IsThisTheEnd?]

I can't tell but I would say I would live somewhere remote and probably be happy.

 

[The Eeyorish One]

I think if I suddenly had 10 million I would probably not go through with it anymore, but I'd still think about it a lot. It would allow me to not bother trying to find a job and let me lay around doing nothing all day as I currently do, but would now be without the guilt of not contributing. I'd be able to pay my own bills and not be as much of a burden so it'd definitely help. That being said, I'd still be terribly mentally ill, so who knows if it'd really be enough weight lifted off of me to prevent my trying to ctb.

 

[jodie]

No, it would not change anything though I admit, I have enough not to have to really worry about paying my bills or buying the necessities like food or clothes so that may be the reason why it would not change much.
It would not make me be something good in the lives of people who matter to me. It would not make them like me or care about me at least a tiny bit. I would still be just poisoning their lives no matter what I did or what I could give them thanks to the money - actually they don't want anything because getting something would make them feel they have some "responsibilities" towards me so I can't even do that when I'm alive.
I would leave the money to them in my last will though. Maybe at least I could do something nice to them after I was gone - actually then it would be a 2-pack: they would get rid of me from their lives and would get some nice money to boot so maybe they would not have only bad thoughts and bad memories about me.

 

[Gray Wounds]

If I have 10 million at the moment, or maybe even more, I'll afford myself the suicide pod. But since I am earning just enough wage, I'll settle on OD or hanging

 

[Wannagonow]

No. It would not change a thing. Not a single thing.

 

[crowbait]

I would stick around. I grew up dirt poor and I'd like to live the high life before I inevitably get cancer anyways. Being poor isn't why I'm catching the bus, but I'd love to experience being rich. They say money doesn't bring happiness, but tell that to a broke person like me. I was homeless earlier this year. I'll buy a house, get a nose job, quit school. I'd still be miserable but my life could be great.

 

[CatLover]

Totally! Well, for the time it took me to get bored of it. It would also make it much easier to go to Dignitas, as that is about £20,000 if I calculated right. So win, win.

 

[Need2BFree]

No amount would want to keep me here. If I was given that money I would give it to someone to look after my dog. Other than that I wouldn't bother taking the money. I can't deal with this depression no more, I can't even look up at the sky and feel how beautiful it is.

If I didn't have my dog, and I had to take the money I would split the money equally some go to my friends, some to mental health, and to SS this site.

 

[Challu]

Totally! Well, for the time it took me to get bored of it. It would also make it much easier to go to Dignitas, as that is about £20,000 if I calculated right. So win, win.

yea this

 

[deathissosad]

If i had tht it would speed it up for me. Some to leave my loved ones and late girlfriends family. Whatever's left over donate to MMIW and leave in peace.