If you fail a suicide attempt everyone hates you but if you succeed everyone loves you. The hypocrisy is astounding

[Orbitc]

@Orbitc I am from African culture that is NOT an option. African family culture is very collectivist in which family households are very interfering in the business of other family members. What career you have and who you marry is a massive deal to the entire family. In African culture you are not allowed under any circumstances to insult the relatives particularly the elders to do risks being tainted and your entire household too.

Growing up from an early age I was always told to be a good girl because if I do anything bad it will look bad on the entire family. My grandmother and mother deeply value the approval of the relatives because of this they put pressure on me to be perfect and I am not allowed to have mistakes while all the males in the family are allowed do all the bullshit, have mistakes and get respect.

If I had financial freedom and independence believe me I would have cut off my entire relatives years ago. I loved the pandemic because it meant not having to see these people anymore.

White westerners in the UK where I live do not understand how hard it is to break free from family members if you are born in African culture where family and reputation is a big deal. God forgive me for saying this but I will be glad when my mother and grandmother die because it means no longer having a reason to deal with these relatives anymore and I finally be free.

I know perfectly well what it is, but I chose to leave home and rent an apartment. I started working as an escort - although I hate my job, it gives me the opportunity to rent an expensive apartment. Having said that I hate relatives, I lost the house that I could have inherited from my mother. It was important for me to say what I really feel and think and I don't care what others think of me. My profession is considered shameful, but it gives me the opportunity to live like a wealthy person. You're just stepping on your own throat for the opinions of relativities that you don't even like.