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JJMaynard97

JJMaynard97

JJ’s Dead Inside, Time to say Goodbye!!
Mar 17, 2023
131
I'd to be fair probably not, like it's been said on here, you wanna be true to yourself and not hide the fact that I decided to. At the end of the day it's what happened and what we thought so there isn't really a point in denying or hiding it.
 
Sweet Tart

Sweet Tart

Arcanist
May 10, 2023
459
The few people who know me are aware of how fucked up I am, so there's no point in trying to hide it. My relationships are not thriving. I don't care how my emotional abusers and onlookers feel about my suicide. Thankfully I won't have to find out.

edit: This seems pretty harsh. More accurate to say I don't care how they feel about how I ctb.
 
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lachrymost

lachrymost

finger on the eject button
Oct 4, 2022
349
I wouldn't hide it. There's a sense in which I see it as a proud, empowering act in a world that has little respect for agency.
 
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Anonymoususer1234

Anonymoususer1234

Experienced
Apr 13, 2023
225
Absolutely. I feel like if I were to kill myself my parents would spin some kind of narrative about why I did it.

(They'd say I was brainwashed or too selfish to keep living or that I did it just for the sake of hurting them or that I had something wrong with me or something like that)

Even if I were to leave a note detailing my reasons they'd probably just go into denial and believe whatever they want to believe.

Plus, when it comes to the people who I do care about I think that hiding the cause of my death might spare them some grief. They'd be able to keep living their lives free of guilt and feeling like there's nothing they could have done about it.
 
qwert3948

qwert3948

Member
Apr 24, 2023
69
If i felt like i could fail, maybe* i'd try to fake accident so i wouldn't risk being in a mental hospital in case i did fail (i've been there before so i wouldn't leave so easily if i had a 2nd one)
but i honestly don't really see the point of faking it otherwise. considering how much my parents know of me (=only people there to 'care'), they probably wouldnt fall for it either
 
Shaylla1998

Shaylla1998

Member
Jul 9, 2023
88
I don't concern myself with whether my CTB appears accidental or intentional as it holds no significance to me. The aftermath is of no consequence, as I won't be present to witness it. Even if I had knowledge of the outcome, it wouldn't affect my lack of concern.
 
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mirzani

Member
Jul 9, 2023
48
I'd be happy to.. i dont wantmy family to suffer the fact of me killing myself. What's done is done, more suffering in their side wont do anything to me.
 
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d3c96524be95

Student
Jan 24, 2023
167
I'm hoping that when I make the decision, my body will not be found so that my family can think my death was an accident or something. My plan is to go to a national park, hike for a day or so to get far away from where I'll leave my car. Undecided on a method, I'm not ready to go all the way yet but I think about it often.
This only works if nobody knows that you're suicidal though. If anybody's aware, I don't think they'd buy any other explanation than suicide, unless you suicide by bear attack or something awful like that. IMHO, if your body isn't found, your family will hope for years that you come back (although knowing deep down it's unlikely). I don't think it's a good idea if you want to minimize their suffering. But I agree the idea of disappearing forever is kind of comforting. And I'd bet it's quite feasible.
 
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Next

Member
Jul 13, 2023
84
Admitting the possibility of a natural accident or an accident can be a great relief for the family. They can try to believe. In doing so, they avoid accusations that they could change something about fate. But only with a few methods (traffic, swimming, auto-eroticism) is it possible to convey this credibly.
 
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Deleted User#81194

Deleted User#81194

Staring into space
May 26, 2023
76
Without hesitation -- honestly. But it's really hard to pull off alone and I don't feel safe meeting with someone here. I'm paranoid I would get murdered, which is the opposite of what I want since there would be a trace that leads back to this site if an investigation we're to be done.

I want it to just be a complete accident so that those who cared about me would be more at ease -- it would have to be something they accept. I like to contemplate things out of human control, such as natural disasters, wild animals, space, etc.

The recent titan accident was a perfect example, it was something everybody had to accept because they couldn't do anything about it and the passengers truly died an instant death. I would have loved to buy tickets.
 
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shantyizlit

shantyizlit

Really, what was the point?
Jul 7, 2023
189
I'm going to get stupidly high the days leading up to my ctb, I really want to leave a rambling suicide note video with my drug fueled god-like powers of social presentation. I really want to make something that'll leave a mark because this situation is just too fucked up.
Psychiatry fucking ruined me and I've told them repeatedly their treatment is not for me, it's not like I had a real say in it. And on top of being involuntarily treated I can't even go anywhere with my suicidal thoughts as I will just be oppressed further by the psychiatric system it's truly a nightmare and I want to convey it to people because this situation is just absurd.
 
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girlsboysthems

girlsboysthems

no i dont have a gun
Dec 19, 2022
423
yes, for insurance purposes..
 
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sorrowful

sorrowful

My exhaustion knows no end
Feb 13, 2023
282
to my family yes.. but i think they would know deep down.
 
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Ico

Ico

Member
Jun 27, 2023
40
If I could 100% hide it as an accident, there would literally be no reason to live. The only thing that keeps me bound to this hellscape is the trauma that my wife and daughter would endure. If it were nothing more than a 'tragic accident', I honestly believe that they would be able to move on to a brighter an happier future without me weighing them down.

Also...I've insured the fuck out of myself, so they'd be able to easily start new lives wherever they want. I'm honestly worth more to them dead than alive at this point.

It would be nice to just hire a hitperson (I don't discriminate) to take me out and stage the scene. Guess that only happens in fiction, huh?
 
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Rabbit50

Member
Apr 5, 2022
77
I wouldn't disguise it. I don't have family to worry about as I am an adult orphan and haven't seen any family members for four years. I am not ashamed that I am ending life for myself and I would want those people who have driven me to this to feel guilty.
 
Wyldfyre4948

Wyldfyre4948

Waiting for my bus
Jul 12, 2023
377
I probably would just to spare any heartache for friends and family. My uncle killed himself with a gun to the head. So if it looks like an accident then they might not be as upset.
 
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▪︎⚠ KOHI ⚠▪︎

-10 points in life
Feb 27, 2023
53
I would consider it, I think that my death being considered as an accident will not get that much impact as if a suicide.
Of course it will hurt maybe but, won't make anyone feel guilty.
Trauma or guilt to othe people involved? Maybe

I'll be honest, for a long time I considered to die by getting hit by a truck. Where I live is very common to find massive ones and the bigger they are, the hardest to stop the vehicle.
Sounds gory but idk, what worries me is, well, the pain I'll have to endure.
 

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