Discussion If you could go back in time and change something in your life (your own birth doesn't count) what would it be?

[Nx7]

My whole life fell apart around February of this year. I was applying for a VISA and would get to live forever in the country that I was applying to. But I rushed things and made a mess of the opportunity. Now, I lost everything: a dynamic life, friends and the joy of living in a country that I loved. I had to come back to the shithole country that I am in. So if I could go back in time that would be it...February of this year

 

[trustlovenoone1881]

If I could start back again from 2017, my freshman year of college, I know I am capable of making it all better.

 

[Some place nice]

I would go back to when I got RSV ( Respiratory Syncytial Virus) as a baby and make my doctors bad at their jobs. RSV can be fatal to babys.

 

[Thalassa]

I would go to the chiropractor my sister saw in high school (who I was unaware of at the time) who completely fixed her really bad posture that was even worse than mine. I would then stop spending almost all of my spare money on "cute" clothes (to try to compensate for my low self-esteem) and I would hire a personal trainer instead so that I could get in the habit of doing strengthening and stretching exercises, while especially working on my core muscles. This would all be to prevent the musculoskeletal injuries that ruined my life.

 

[Manfrotto99]

Everything. I've made all the wrong decisions in my life. All my decisions and relationships were based on having low self esteem and depression , resulting from abusive parents and sibling who kept me down and blamed me for everything to fuel themselves. This together with limited opportunities through society limitations and expectations...and I never really stood a chance. If opportunities where different and I did have the chance to make a good decision for my life, I doubt I ever would of even been able to see it, let alone take advantage of it.

 

[prone2fury]

i'd probably tell my old self not to transition to female. all this work on self-discovery and i'm still less happy than if i had repressed
(i have nothing against transitioning itself i just got unlucky lol)

 

[Danique]

The reason my life is ruined is due to hormones (I'm a transgender woman) somehow not working for me and me still looking completely masculine despite three years of HRT. My dysphoria has always been horrible, but for the 1.5 year it has become unbearable, because now there is nothing more to try and no hope left. Maybe HRT would have been more effective if I could have started at an earlier age.

Transition would have been impossible anyhow when I was pre-20, because of my conservative family and limited other means.

I did tell psychologist about my real gender when I was 22, but they didn;t take it serious. I should have tried to make clear how important it was for me to fix how wrong my body and face are. I'm still angry at myself that I didn't insist more to get treatment for my GD back then.

Or I should have realized at an earlier age that selfmedicating HRT was maybe an option, but it probably wasn;t even a real option until it was too late.

Ofcourse, somehow having the money for procedures (vaginoplasty, ffs. BA etc.) would also help, but I mainly feel deeply betrayed by my body that not only was it wrong to begin with, but it also not changing despite having correct bloodvalues. My body sickens me so much. It's so wrong.

EDIT: didn't even see the previous message. Probably posted, when I was still writing mine. Weird coïncidence

 

[wait.what]

If I only get one do-over, I guess I probably would have told my high school basketball coach about the hell I was living in at home. He was the first adult who actually expressed an openness to hear about abuse, neglect, and the emotional problems that come with them. I came very close to telling him. I'd just had bad experiences with asking for help in the past. I was also in my senior year of high school by then, and I was worried that I might not graduate on time if I ended up in a psyche ward, or foster care, or both. I was going to graduate that June if it killed me, because high school graduation was my ticket OUT! Still, it might have prevented my nervous breakdown the following year if I hadn't had to deal with everything by myself.

 

[LetMeBeSad]

I would have picked a better ctb method the first time I tried at 8.