After watching Ronnie Mcnutt blow his head clean apart like a banana being split open as made me really fear weapons as a suicide method. Yes it worked but what if it didn't and the mess and horror for someone else to witness. That's no open casket funeral.
That young man at the top, does he have an AK? I think ive seen this on best gore before the site was taken down. That ammo he used, I dont know if it was a special kind or not, really did the trick. The blast seemed to do the damage because of the close range. It looked like the "sound" and wind displacement is what ripped him up so bad. I dont think that rifle would do that at a long range or even from across the room.Haven't seen anyone really go str8 for the brainstem with a shotgun.
i believe its a saiga 12, basically the shotgun version of an ak. semi auto, not that matters when one shot does the trick
From my CoD knowledge that could look like a semi-automatic shotgun. An SK-12 or something iirc.
Lol, hivemind.
See, I watched that one. It looked like cgi to me. Obviously all the confirmations around it say it was real but it almost looked like one of those school video projects "Ronnies Rage Quit Gaming" or something. Good videos for learning what it looks like to die by that method. Sad that we live in that world but thats what taxes and death does to people. I had a vet buddy in Georgia ctb because his restaurant went under. Fight for 'merica just to have your rights and dreams blown to crap with everyone else. Anyways......
I'm still trying to figure out why I "don't" or "won't". I have everything in place and have finished all my prep. I was waiting for one last thing but I dont need it. To say I'm not scared would be a lie but I am ready and I can go at anytime. I'm more afraid I will do it than that I won't. Could I do it right now/tonight? That's exactly what I'm trying to decide over the next month. So today I'm here and so is everyone else. Maybe that means something? My situation is very bad and not much can improve. I'm ill/sick, I'm poor, I'm exhausted, and I'm alone. My change of emotions is the only thing keeping me from it.
Right. But he DID CTB. He is gone so it worked and he made it out.
Are you only waiting on a method?
Is sarco that box that fills with nitro like an exit bag coffin?
I hope that something better will work out for you. But I know once there is that commitment it's hard to escape
Assuming that "all planned out" includes auxiliary tasks like notes and having one's affairs in order and "the best time" means that there is no chance of being interrupted, then I would go without question. I've procrastinated enough and passing up this chance would be something that I would regret for the the rest of my days.
I don't want to do anything else and even if my illnesses and problems were to be waived, there is no permutation of my future life that I can see myself wanting to live in. It is too late to make something of my life and many of the things and people I would want in my life are irretrievably lost. I'll pass. Only peace matters.
I would have to force myself to do it because I feel like my si would kick in, so yes but my mind and anxiety would try to convince me that there's a "reason" to stay when there really isn't any.
think this is the case for many people. "There's a reason for me to go on!"....... universe: silence.
We should all be given a gun at birth. Lets see how civilised we actually are!
