I only wish for eternal nothingness, there is absolutely nothing appealing about any kind of existence at all, I simply wish to be unaware where all is forgotten about. Any kind of existence will always be very unnecessary and undesirable to me, I don't desire the feeling of being conscious and aware, I don't see any value in experiencing anything, to have the ability to do so is tiresome and is a burden.
No matter what I'll always see it as better to not exist, as in non-existence there is no problems, suffering or concerns, an eternal dreamless sleep would solve what I see as the ultimate problem which is existence itself.