Discussion If you could change something in your life, what would you change?

[Eren]

If you could change something in your life, what would you change?

Only one thing can be said. Also, if that changed, would you consider continuing to live?

In my case:

1.- I would change being autistic, it is what I hate the most about myself.

2.- Possibly I would live, I have more problems in my life apart, but possibly I would have more motivation to live if I did not have all the problems related to autism.

 

[melp]

I wish my brain was constructed differently. I am also on the autism spectrum. It does not bother me. I just want superhuman intelligence and moderate psychopathy. Then I would have enough money and create the best environment for myself. I don't want to change too much. Then I would probably live longer, but I would still get bored.

Then I would go to my goal and that's it. Now logic prevents me from making a rational decision to continue the senseless struggle.

I know my lack of motivation too well, but I can't fool myself.

 

[InTheAirTonight]

My family.

 

[softfuzzyman]

I'd want to have a functioning healthy brain that isn't just stuck in constant uncurable "i want to die" mode

 

[Anthagonos]

I would change my mind because I want to be someone normal and enjoy life instead of suffering. When? From 1997

 

[VIBRITANNIA]

my family members' personalities, or my parents' parenting.

 

[Anthagonos]

I'd want to have a functioning healthy brain that isn't just stuck in constant uncurable "i want to die" mode

One personal question... do you have regular sex?

 

[Final Escape]

I'd be financially secure, have a family, and a partner. I would have a life worth living instead of a sad lonely boring impoverished existence.

 

[TAW122]

The first aspect would be the same as yours, if I could change my genes before I was conceived, I would opt to have something else other than Aspergers or autism in general. Of course, that would mean that I could end up as a normie without self-awareness and what not, and other variables, but at least I wouldn't have the social or day to day misery that the disorder brings me.

The other aspect, although different would be for me to be born more physically attractive, so that way I could enjoy a better dating and sex life than currently. I get that "but there is more to life than sex (or insert any activity/hobby/event/thing/noun/etc.)", but each to each's own, and what someone may find trivial I find important, and vice versa.

There are more things, but these are just the two that I could think of off the top of my head.

 

[dec132013]

My biological sex, being trans feels like a curse and is the root to the majority of my problems

Being less lonely would be nice too, or having a brain that didn't want to self destruct daily

 

[Deleted member 18655]

The first seven years. Either I would wish for another childhood or the knowledge that I should have try to keep telling what was happening to me. If those years would have been different I think I'd have had a great life.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

I'd probably change myself to being incredibly naturally talented at something, anything that I can make money out of.

 

[UnsureWhatToDo]

Go back a year or so ago, and just let myself be proud of being bit cold and calulating, and not ashamed od beimg q bit obsessive over fictional worlds. To me personally, even though my social anxiety was pretty bad, I think I could've been okay if I'd really embraced my passion for my work, and spoke up about what I was skilled at.

Also, not let the thought that just because my teachers are more educated than me, that does not mean that they're wiser than me. That it is possible to have put more thought into something than THEY have.

 

[AprilsBlessings]

My existence

 

[Life sucks]

More brain chemicals, I'll enjoy more then ctb

 

[ERASED]

Me being born.

 

[FriendofDeath]

11/11/2013 - to save my young son.

 

[Eren]

The first aspect would be the same as yours, if I could change my genes before I was conceived, I would opt to have something else other than Aspergers or autism in general. Of course, that would mean that I could end up as a normie without self-awareness and what not, and other variables, but at least I wouldn't have the social or day to day misery that the disorder brings me.

The other aspect, although different would be for me to be born more physically attractive, so that way I could enjoy a better dating and sex life than currently. I get that "but there is more to life than sex (or insert any activity/hobby/event/thing/noun/etc.)", but each to each's own, and what someone may find trivial I find important, and vice versa.

There are more things, but these are just the two that I could think of off the top of my head.

I understand you completely. I hate being "weird", I hate not being like everyone else, I hate never fitting in anywhere, I hate not having a normal social/sex life. I hate not managing my emotions well. In short, I hate not being normal.

I get that "but there is more to life than sex (or insert any activity/hobby/event/thing/noun/etc.)", but each to each's own, and what someone may find trivial I find important, and vice versa.

Many people tell me the same thing, it is really absurd, each person values some things more than others, in fact some people are happy without having a social life, and other people like me consider CTB for that question.

 

[Superdeterminist]

I would change myself from alive to permanently dead. I fucking despise this existence.

 

[H2H2]

1. The one thing I would change now is drinking. If I could go back in time, the one thing I would change is self awareness.
2. No, its too late for me.

 

[Sinai Silence]

I would change it so my mum stayed with her husband. She would be financially secure living in New Zealand. Instead of having an abusive drug addict as my dad. Hopefully it means I would cease to exist too.

 

[GonnaGoBye]

Go back time recently last 2019. I dont care if it breaks yhe laws of space and time I want my happy life back.

 

[Notme]

I'd be happy.

 

[Shades of Grey]

If I could change one thing, I'd go back and prevent the death of someone I was very close to. There is something I had promised to do that would have led to his being discovered in time to save him... but I didn't follow through on that particular day.

He died by suicide.

While I am generally pretty staunchly pro-choice, this was a young and incredibly impulsive child.

 

[ali456]

I would make my body perfectly healthy again

1. The one thing I would change now is drinking. If I could go back in time, the one thing I would change is self awareness.
2. No, its too late for me.

same here

 

[Blueman]

I'd agree to take the job I was offered in winter 2018/9 instead of taking a payoff .
And if I couldn't change that I'd only travel until last September instead of March so I'd probably have got a job before this stupid virus killed the job market

 

[Caspers]

I would either go back in time and not tell my online friends goodbye (then I would have succeeded STB), or I would get my brain injury cured. Would be nice to get my memory back.

 

[Spitfire]

What does it mean when you are honestly unable to think of an answer to this?

 

[BPD Barbie]

I'd be born into a rich family and free from mental illness.

 

[Spitfire]

I came up with something.

If I could be born with my brain awareness in a constant state of psychedelicness, like what you get with good acid or shrooms...

I am pretty sure I would want to keep on if this were the case.