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tooafraidtodiez

Will CTB before my favourite show ends
Apr 29, 2026
182
And also maybe why? You can choose not to tell if it's too personal. For me it's the second one since I have a disablity and in constant pain.
 
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Quietist

Quietist

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Sep 6, 2024
325
I would choose going back to the age of 14, but only if I could retain the knowledge I have now, to be able to re-do my adolescence, make different choices, and re-do my early adulthood.
 
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E4syW3y0u7

E4syW3y0u7

Wasted it all.
May 19, 2026
208
If i can return back in time and preprogram myself to make the best decisions for my life, having kind of an "instinct" instead of memories, then yes i'll restart. I just don't want to remember what i've done because i can't live with that.
 
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Le temps perdu

Le temps perdu

pragmatics errors can kill me
Dec 10, 2025
371
I would choose voluntary assisted dying, because life's uncertainties are the worst.
 
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so-so2

so-so2

wompwomp
Nov 14, 2025
11
Voluntarily assisted dying because I can't rewind that many times when it comes to trauma
 
TwistedNightmares

TwistedNightmares

Destined to die
Nov 1, 2025
283
I would pick voluntary assisted dying. I have no safe moments I can rewind back to.
 
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peacebenow

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Apr 26, 2026
330
turn back in time before causes and conditions have led me here because I am currently unable to get medically aid in dying.
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,669
All I could ever hope and wish for is to peacefully cease existing and never suffer in this terrible, dreadful and torturous existence ever again, to me existence will just always be a mistake that just causes and brings all this dreadful unnecessary suffering.

I'll just always prefer to not exist no matter what, I'd never wish to exist rather I just want to cease existing in peace, in this existence so torturous and dreadful non-existence is just all I see as positive and desirable. All I hope for is a death as painless as possible, existence to me will always be an abomination that only ever tortures existing beings and I find it so terrible how a human can suffer in this existence for so long with no limit as to how much they can be tortured just to face the terrible extreme agony of old age, all I want is for this existence to be all forgotten and erased with no more torture and no more suffering.
 
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Lemelonade

Member
May 13, 2026
18
Voluntary assisted dying. Not because I wouldn't live my life differently with the knowledge I have today, but because I just don't want to be in this world any longer.
 
bruised_reed

bruised_reed

Student
Apr 1, 2026
105
Voluntary Assisted Dying. There isn't a point in time that I could turn back to that would help the situation because I realize my tolerance for suffering is not high enough for there to ever be a good outcome. This world is full of suffering.
 
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122uth

122uth

New Member
Aug 17, 2019
3
turning back time wouldn't do any good. ever since childhood i've had a screw loose. i constantly try to change and be a better person but there's something deeply wrong. i could turn back the time to avoid when i hurt others in the past, but it wouldn't change my being broken

reading others' experiences on this site though.. to know i'm cursed from the start and nothing could fix that -- that's preferable to having a specific moment (or several) where things fell apart and to hate the cause of that for the rest of my existence. i feel a little bit grateful now
 
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sandqueen

sandqueen

Member
Jun 1, 2026
13
turn back time. maid wouldn't be any different to suicide in how much it would hurt my sister, which is the main reason i'm still alive. also i wanna experience when i didn't have a fucked up depressed brain. and everything being cared by someone else.

also i want to have the opportunity to talk with my mom with my adult mind (and try to convince her to dump my dad while at it) learn about her experiences first-hand. it would be nice if i could convince my mom i'm an adult at mind and have the adult conversations i never can have now
 
Black Sheep One

Black Sheep One

Student
Mar 4, 2023
118
I would go back in time. I would make sure my parents never conceive me. I would make sure my parents never met.
 
phantasmagoria

phantasmagoria

Member
Nov 17, 2025
53
Voluntary assisted dying. Going back in time wouldn't change my life or my desire to ctb as a lot of the reasons I want to ctb are beyond my control. It's not about making the right choices
Nevermind (after reading the reply above me), I think I would go back to prevent my conception but then I wouldn't exist which would mean I wouldn't be able to prevent my conception. So, I don't think I can do it myself. Someone else has to; but then, after they do it I won't exist anymore and there would be no trigger to initiate the conception-prevention mission (similar problem to what I mentioned earlier). I think it would be a different story if the many-worlds interpretation is true, but I'm not sure.
 
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