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LastLoveLetter

LastLoveLetter

Persephone
Mar 28, 2021
654
I think that having a final "happy" day would fuel my survival instinct and trick me into thinking I can have days like that all the time, when I know from experience that I can't.

I would instead normalise it, and normalise the decision to die, by not drawing any special attention to the day. I would make sure I've done everything I need to do and have my affairs in order, and then ctb at bedtime when I feel ready to fall asleep. Then never have to wake up, and feel the burden of existence weighing me down ever again.
 
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rata1

Arcanist
May 8, 2019
448
I think that having a final "happy" day would fuel my survival instinct and trick me into thinking I can have days like that all the time, when I know from experience that I can't.

I would instead normalise it, and normalise the decision to die, by not drawing any special attention to the day. I would make sure I've done everything I need to do and have my affairs in order, and then ctb at bedtime when I feel ready to fall asleep. Then never have to wake up, and feel the burden of existence weighing me down ever again.
oh yes. this is probably the best way to do it. it would probably be even more relief to quit this world than celebrating in a special way
 
DunnoWhyButYeah

DunnoWhyButYeah

~*-*~
Apr 3, 2020
403
Today was that kind of day what I would wanted to be my last.
I went for a walk in beautiful nature, I eated good food, watched good movie and I was happy and calm...

I also would like to be honest and tell to one person something, because it couldn't cause any problems to me after I'm dead. There is too many things what I don't do because I'm too afraid...
 
insanedoomer

insanedoomer

Zé"HaZarD
Jan 10, 2021
244
it's okey , i'll just die .
 
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Celerity

Celerity

shape without form, shade without colour
Jan 24, 2021
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I think that having a final "happy" day would fuel my survival instinct and trick me into thinking I can have days like that all the time, when I know from experience that I can't.

I would instead normalise it, and normalise the decision to die, by not drawing any special attention to the day. I would make sure I've done everything I need to do and have my affairs in order, and then ctb at bedtime when I feel ready to fall asleep. Then never have to wake up, and feel the burden of existence weighing me down ever again.
Smart
 
NasiGoreng

NasiGoreng

Experienced
Aug 11, 2021
219
I dont think I would be able to enjoy myself, if im CTB ill be depressed and alone the whole day
 

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