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AbsurdAbyss
Lost, broken, empty, fragmented.
- Mar 4, 2024
- 52
I feel like there's always so much more I could say but for some reason cannot - my words seem to betray me as much as I trust them. Every time I want to say something, I'm reminded of all the things that have gone wrong and could go wrong every time I've ever said it and wil say it. A burden that gets tougher to bear with each passing day. Was it miscommunication or a misunderstanding, was it me or them? Haunted by endless questions and the answers doesn't even matter because we've had this conversation before and its always already over before it begins. I don't want to be remembered - I just want to be recognized, even if for a moment, as I am. I don't want to be seen - I just want to disappear, as if I never existed to anybody who couldn't recognize me. An impossibility as long as I exist - people only ever see what they want to see. Drowning in failed dreams and dead memories, I'm left with self hatred to the point of self annihilation - I hope my death brings an end to this mess that is my life. If any of this makes sense to you and you want nothing more than death - PM me if you want, I don't want to be (alone) here any more than you do.