Discussion If there are still things you want in life, what is preventing you from getting them?

[madasco]

Age (15%), lack of money (70%) and health (15%); is it not enough?

 

[Gabbi_Station]

Money. All of it is related to Money.

No matter how hard I work or how educated I am- none of that matters in America anymore. If you grew up poor… you will pretty much die poor.

 

[cherriesandwine]

I know I want *something* but I don't actually know what

I think I want a career but every time I start a new job I wind up hating it and spiral into a mental health crisis

but then when I'm not working (like now) and actively applying to jobs I hate myself for not being able to get a job and not having a career or whatever already even though, again, I don't even know what I want to do and I've hated everything I've tried and I hate the idea of being stuck doing something I hate forever and I wind up spiraling either way and I guess that's why my life feels so pointless

 

[Reflection]

Some things are completely out of our control.

 

[outrider567]

There's nothing I want in life

 

[Boots2Scoots]

Myself. I am 100% the reason that I'll never obtain the life that I once thought I'd have. Waiting to lose it all any day now unless I can manage to CTB before that day.

 

[Valhala]

I don't want things, I want only her because without her absolutely nothing makes sense in my life anymore. And what prevents us from being together again is that after three breakups on my part she no longer wants it because she is hurt and disappointed in me. I love her more than anything and more than myself.. I know that she still has feelings for me but everything seems impossible because I've tried really everything..

 

[MyChoiceAlone]

i made the mistake of getting what i wanted. i adopted a dog. wish she was older but now i'm stuck here for many more years. if anything viable comes out, i'll be sure to secure it.

 

[Michi_Violeta]

What would make my life better? A miracle. My ex coming back, acknowledging she made a mistake and giving us another chance. That would give me the motivation to go and fix my racecar again and go for a national record. And with both those things back in my life I'd be fucking unstoppable. Despite my crisis I haven't ruined the career I'm building as a bilingual interpreter, it's good paying job and with the morale boost from both my Michi and Violeta I'd be able to excel at it, enabling me to move out of my family's home and finally start living the life I wanted two years ago. We'd either live together here or apply for further education abroad and live together there.

What's holding me back? That miracles don't exist and I can't force her to come back. I was already fragile when we met and now I'm a broken man, specially after the wounds she left when she broke up with me. I cannot go on, I don't want to go on. I don't have the energy or motivation to keep working on myself (IT'S ALL FUCKING WORK I'M TIRED OF IT), specially because I've been working a lot on myself these past few years and it all was for nothing. I don't want to go through the trouble and pain and effort of meeting someone know, specially because that doesn't happen to me often. It's almost like a domino effect in which she's the first tile that would put everything back into place. I used to think I didn't need someone to save me, to fix my life, that I just wanted company while I did that myself, but last year was fucking atrocious and now I do need her to save me.

 

[SilentSadness]

The state of reality, it's impossible for me to live in a dream world where others are kind and I can experience what I want. I think eventually, virtual reality will make it possible but it will always be flawed and it will take too long.

 

[Droso]

I want to be male. The only way I can get close to that is by transitioning which costs so much money. The ability to do that might be stripped away from me. I can't wait any longer dissociated like this.

Sometimes I wonder even if I woke up in a male body would I be happy or not.

 

[LoveandCerulean]

Lack of support. Literally just that. No one was willing to help me stop something that was completely preventable at no cost to themselves. Dehumanizing experience to have to collect every ounce of energy you have, pour out your trauma and ask for help just for people to do nothing, not listen, ignore. The betrayal/abandonment created a secondary trauma on top of the original trauma. It's just not a world I wish to be part of anymore.