Discussion If someone loved you, would you still want to die?

[Jynxer]

I noticed a post about money. Just wondering about love. I guess I mean more romantically, like a significant other. But it could be other kinds of love if you want to discuss that

I have people who..... love me ...... I think.... but not a significant other.
One of the reasons I don't get involved in personal relationships, is because I'm gonna leave this place at some point, of my choosing, and don't wanna bring someone into that mess.

To answer your question, yes, that might stop me. However, I am in a place in my life where I'm so fucked in the head and stuck in my ways, that I don't think I would be capable of even letting someone in enough to get to the point of falling in love. So not too worried about that lol!

 

[lostangel]

I would want to die but never actually do it, if I found the love of my life

 

[CelestialSky]

I fell madly in love with someone who loves me back just the same. I feel terrible for wanting to ctb, because even though it's amazing love, it's still not enough :(

 

[Dawn0071111]

The only one whose love would have kept me alive is the one I want to die. Tried in January. Now I have to face living without him for the rest of my life. I don't want to.

 

[Lakeshow]

No, not under my current circumstances (chronic illness, debilitating). I do think many here would though. Love is a beautiful thing.

 

[glk]

Well there is a person who loves me to the point of obsession and still I'm on this site lol

 

[Beautifulletdown]

I don't know if that is enough anymore. I would be waiting for the person to get tired and discard me like the rest. I'm not sure the love I want is even possible anymore. When I like someone not long after they figure out they're not ready for a relationship. I'm kinda like the movie Good Luck Chuck except in a bad way. Love is a losing game to quote Amy Winehouse.

 

[Etherealdignity333]

No.

 

[Darkhaven]

No, it wouldn't even come close to make me not want to ctb. It just can't solve my problems.
It could, at best, make me forget about it for some time but it would always be back.

 

[GeorgeJL]

suffering > romantic love = N
suffering < romantic love = live
suffering < children + romantic love = live
suffering > children + romantic love = live
suffering (much greater than) > children + romantic love = N

Life can be calculated as an equation. But at the same time I also believe that love is infinite. Life is full of paradoxes and mysteries waiting to be found. Life is like a video game. And I just leveled up one for figuring this out.

 

[Ixtabba]

Someone loves me and depends on me already with all of his heart... but I can't bear to live on this unfair, unjust world anymore. Some people just can't survive on this hellscape, me included no matter who relies on you and loves you.

 

[IMALB]

Nope - partly because I wouldn't believe it and partly because it's about being in mental pain that persists regardless of whether I were to be loved by someone.

 

[laiduponit]

If you're talking about family love then that isn't an issue for me, though if you're talking romantic then I'd probably still do it. I got to the point of not wanting relationships because it doesn't really change my mood. I'm constantly just grey, I'm never happy but I'm never cripplingly sad anymore. Just content with my decision to CTB in the very, very near future. You kind of change how you act around people and start caring less, which can be seen as good and bad. Depends who you are. Though If someone came along that I truly liked, had a personality I could be around and weren't like previous people I've been with then I'd consider staying alive for them, at least long enough to see if it worked out.

 

[Pistolero114]

Yes.

I've tasted that love "thing" too many times already and it only made things worse. Sweet at the beginning, bitter, toxic and enslaving later on. Nevermore.

Quote the Raven; "Nevermore"

 

[Doomcat]

I have a husband, and parents, and the best friends anyone could ask for. It doesn't make a difference because I can't stand myself. I don't know why the people in my life love me, or how they can. In the end, it's only making things worse to know that I will eventually hurt and disappoint them.

 

[Conker]

True love isn't even a common experience nowadays, and seeing as this is the final life then I don't care to roll the dice ever again. Time to return to formlessness/non-being. People oftentimes mistake caring for love.

 

[Mpez28892]

Definitely. And I do. But what is all of that good for if I'm the one that has to sleep with my never-ending-self-loathing-internal monologue?

 

[Anathema]

Only my parents love me. I wish I better knew how to love them.
Or anyone for that matter.

 

[Manja]

No

 

[Moonicide]

Yes. Love can't fix me and I learned that the hard way. I'll ctb while being in love with my boyfriend of almost 3 years.

 

[Shinbu]

I had someone from my childhood who had a crush on me since we were kids. I had a crush on her older sister though. We used to be neighbors, and I would play super smash bros. melee on their gamecube with her, and two sisters. We would do outdoors activities too, and they weren't the only people I visit. I used to visit these boys who had a nintendo 64, and play star fox with them, and watch horror movies. This was me in my prime I used to visit people, and socialize. She moved to a different city, and I did as well. She finds me on social media somehow, and she confesses that she has a crush on me, and supposedly she's been looking for me all these years. I kinda figure since thinking back she always like being near me. The problem was she liked who she used to know, and I figure things wouldn't work out since I'm a completely different person from my childhood. I told her I wasn't interested in her to save her from being disappointed in her expectations of me. If someone was interested in me romantically yes I would still ctb since my experience with my reunion tells me that I still would, I had suicidal thoughts still after that reunion. My mom, and her boyfriend, and my bros love me. I still want to die. So even with family love being there I still would say yes. The urge has grown stronger to ctb I'm glad I found this forum because back then I felt hopeless. Someone loving me just can't save me from what I feel about this world, and life. My death would save me.