People, I've been around suicide forums for longer than some of you have been alive. And I don't mean that meanly. I've tried everything including drinking chloroform and every time I've ended up in ICU. but now I'm 46 I'm a little wiser. I live in Scotland and I know where the police can't find me. My life has been a shit storm since I was born and it continues to today with a wife who'd rather spend Xmas messaging her ex from a one night stand that caused a child I've raised since he was 7 he's now 21 and she found him in Facebook. I can't work a career due to my mental problems and I can't even be a dad. All my family hate me and my wife and her family are so tight I feel excluded. So this is my fuck you to the world I hope they all pay for eternity as much as the pedophile who abused me as a kid. I just can't cope anymore.