If money weren't an issue, would you even be on this site?

[Fadeawaaaay]

With enough money, I would keep myself distracted and entertained, and could finance all sorts of cool projects to keep myself busy

 

[Source Energy]

Yes. My wanting to cbt is about something else. :(

 

[hapiniuier]

I'm not sure since I was suicidal for the first time when <18 and didn't have to worry about it back then. But winning a lottery/UBI/welfare would certainly prolong my life now. I'd rather die than work 9-5.

 

[morimori]

I hate society in its current state and don't want to exist in it, but if I was filthy rich I would def be humming a different tune lol. I'd probably still be suicidal but I'd at least be able to spend money on things to distract myself with, and once I finally ctb, I'd have tons of money to leave behind for my family and orgs that work for causes I believe in.

 

[Regen]

No, I would not be not on this side.

My depression would not be away with much money, but I could handle the consequences in a much better way.

I would pay a psychologists or coach to motivate me every single day. I would have someone who would cook good food and help me with the housework, I would have daily a massage. And the very best is, I could buy a house, so that my children could meet their friends at home. Seeing them happy would make me happy. And without all these problems around me I could do my inner work to feel better.

But maybe this would not work. Maybe I have to be on a very dark place to get the motivation to change myself. But I am really not sure If this is right.

 

[DaatiSimi]

Yes and no.

I wouldn't be on this website because I would have had the resources to do it the legal route through assisted suicide, have my family be with me and then have the money to bring my body to my country where I'd like to be buried in one of our most sacred cemeteries.

So money would just help me die in a more humane way, for me and my family.

I'm broken beyond repair, no amount of money will solve that

 

[circuspeanut]

maybe its because of the country im living in, but man it sure would help a lot. id be able to transition a lot easier, do what i love, help my loved ones, it would fix most of my problems, and id finally be less of a burden on my loved ones.

 

[Flameboyant]

Money would help me stay alive but there is defo something wrong with my brain, so not sure how long that would last.

 

[time2fly]

Would not be suicidal at all if I had money. It is the source of all my current problems. Still have mental health issues / past trauma but money would let me get treatment and live my life.

 

[whywere]

If I had a huge pile of money, I would still be here. This place is my sanctuary, maybe I am an idiot? but through the decades I have worked with people who have not had much money and I have worked with billionaires and the bottom line for me would be that money would not buy me happiness. Now for some or a lot of folks it probably would, which is great, but I have food, a roof over my head and clothes on my back and some savings, good enough for me.

Walter

 

[UKscotty]

Nah, I have a good job and money is not really an issue so I think it wouldn't make a difference.

Plenty of rich and famous people CTB.

Yes, I have no doubt that having money troubles will accelerate the desire to CTB, but having it won't really take it away.

 

[tiredangelgirl]

Would not be suicidal at all if I had money. It is the source of all my current problems. Still have mental health issues / past trauma but money would let me get treatment and live my life.

pretty much how I feel too. I think I would still deal with suicidal feelings, but the desire to ACTUALLY do it would go away. I would distract myself and do lots of fun things to pass the time. thank you for sharing!

I would likely still be here because my detriments, especially at this point, really aren't reversible, salvageable or fixable.

But even though suicide would still be inevitable, the money would be extremely helpful.
I would use it to take care of a lot of things that have been put on hold (as far as my preparations to ctb) and also to put things in place for the animals here, etc.
Would probably use it as leverage to make sure my requests were met too.
Money talks.

I would also use it to get out of my current environment, which still would not make life livable but at least I could run away from all these people and this place I cannot stand, so I could die elsewhere, in some manner of peace.
Joy and contentment can never be had in my position, misery is relentless…but money would make it a lot easier to dissociate, cut any remaining ties, and get the fuck out of dodge before I bite the bullet.

what animals do you have?

Yes. My wanting to cbt is about something else. :(

what's your reasoning (if you want to share?) if not no worries :)

 

[lukas19]

Well if I won the lottery I'd spend 95% of it on drink, drugs and loose women and the rest I would waste.
-George Best-

 

[HopelessSoul]

I would be just a suicidal guy with a lot of money, and still would rather be around truly empathetic people here than most of anyone else i know irl.

 

[HopelessScientist]

Maybe, maybe not. I am really not well off financially but it's been 16 years that I've been suffering from depression (I was 7 when I started crying myself to sleep). I wonder if even with the best treatments available to man that I'd be able to recover. I don't even know what I'd be recovering, there's no happy or ok state for me to return to.

 

[BillyBob]

Money has not been to much of an issue, but will be soon once my benefit gets cut most likely this year and will not beable to make payments.
I live a very simple lonely life with no wants and very few people I actually talk to. My mind is starting to go from my mental health issues and the whole "Things get better" has been nothing but last for the past 15 years. Once I lose my benefit I will be gone as I have become such a burden on everything and honestly money does not solve any of my issues anymore nor brings any form of happyness. If I did have limitless money I would keep giving it to friends to pay off loans etc and never use it my self.

 

[Darkover]

if i had money i would ctb asap

 

[Thanatos]

Money is far down my list of concerns and I am fortunate enough to be able to get by without issue. My problem is me, I am my own worst enemy. A large part of me detests life and has as far back as I can remember. I can still find small things in life that bring moments/glimpses of what be happiness but I think I'm just hard-wired to ctb eventually.

 

[enditplz]

I grew up poor and was depressed and thought about ctb. I now have plenty of money and am still depressed and currently in the process of buying items to ctb.

 

[randy]

I have a large amount of savings (too depressed to spend it) and I make about $300k/yr and I still want to CTB

 

[tiredangelgirl]

I have a large amount of savings (too depressed to spend it) and I make about $300k/yr and I still want to CTB

this thread has been super eye opening to me. maybe it's naive or dumb to think money would solve ALL my issues. I can't even imagine making $100k a year. that's a huge goal of mine and nowadays that's enough to just live comfortably in the us. I hope you book a nice vacation for yourself or a massage or spa day or something try to treat yourself!!

I would be just a suicidal guy with a lot of money, and still would rather be around truly empathetic people here than most of anyone else i know irl.

alexa play rich & sad by post malone

i'm with you OP, i don't think i'd struggle as much if i had lots of money. i'd be able to move away from all the awful people in my life, spoil my friends who deserve it, and pay for my counseling. i could fund my passions, not worry about sacrificing years of my life for a career i only care about to survive, etc... i think there are definitely lots of us who would have far less issues if we didn't struggle financially. i hope that you manage to find a way to solve your problems and land in a better spot, financially and emotionally.

let me guess are you in the us too?? everything is so damn expensive. I can barely afford to put gas in my car and I skip eating most days cause I just eat pasta 1/2 the time. I have a license and a somewhat decent job too. rent and car payment is just killing me.

 

[outrider567]

I possess plenty of money but without her to share it with, it means nothing--She worked so hard in her life, 38 years, many of those well past 40 hour workweeks, then just 8 years of retirement...and then she was gone

 

[FuneralCry]

In my case no matter the circumstances I could never wish to exist. The reality and nature of this existence is something that I very much despise, and I view it as being a curse having the ability to be conscious and aware of this world. I don't see existence as being something beneficial and desirable anyway, and it isn't like money is a solution for all suffering in the first place. Life is such an useless concept that leads to nothing and nowhere apart from our inevitable deterioration and death and I don't wish to age and be tortured by health problems. The thought of such a thing is horrific to me. Only death could solve what I see as being the true problem which is life itself. I just wish for non existence where nothing can concern me and I don't have to be burdened by existence anymore.

 

[yive]

i'm not interested in money (or anything else), only interested in leaving life

 

[MissedTheBusAgain]

If you had endless money and you didn't have to worry about paying bills, loans, etc or have to work a shitty job, would you still be in this mindset right now?

I know money doesn't solve all issues but it does solve a damn lot. Even if I was a billionaire and had depression, at least I could afford top notch care and the most effective treatments. My current therapy office isn't exactly the best, especially cause i'm limited to options near me due to my insurance. I think even just being able to afford better mental health services would help me tremendously. I was just curious if money seems to be a contributing factor to a lot of people on here.

Honestly, no. I probably wouldn't be on here if money weren't a thing, I'd just do whatever whenever and be my best self. Work is part of the problem for me, I'm hella autistic so I can only do so many jobs for so long before I'm having daily meltdowns and trying to smash my skull through anything and everything around me. And that doesn't really make life worth living in any reality. But if I didn't have to do that, and I could just stay high and play video games and listen to music and travel and paint and whatever else? Yeah, maybe that's a life worth living.

 

[LittleBlackCat]

If you had endless money and you didn't have to worry about paying bills, loans, etc or have to work a shitty job, would you still be in this mindset right now?

I know money doesn't solve all issues but it does solve a damn lot. Even if I was a billionaire and had depression, at least I could afford top notch care and the most effective treatments. My current therapy office isn't exactly the best, especially cause i'm limited to options near me due to my insurance. I think even just being able to afford better mental health services would help me tremendously. I was just curious if money seems to be a contributing factor to a lot of people on here.

For me, now I've found SaSu I'll probably never leave.. At Least while I'm alive. It's a nice community. If I had endless money I don't think I'd want to ctb, I'd be able to pay for the best mental healthcare, wouldn't need to work and wouldn't have to rely on the welfare system. I also get overwhelmed by bills.

I love your photo

 

[randy]

I hope you book a nice vacation for yourself or a massage or spa day or something try to treat yourself!!

I've tried going on vacation different places but I just end up lonely, bored and depressed. Always wish I had a GF with me on vacation. But when I've had GFs I somehow never end up going on vacation with them. Probably because I fear commitment

Would rather just lay on my couch.

 

[ready to go....]

It's hard to say.

Although failing deeply into debt a few years ago, and still now being in the worst financial position I've ever been in, it's a huge contribution to my reasons to ctb. But saying that, I was deeply depressed and borderline suicidal before this happened, its almost like falling into major financial difficulties has topped it off for me. Knowing what my life could be if I was financially successful would maybe make all the difference in my decision, but I just know I'll never be able to find that out!

 

[ephemerality]

if money was no object i don't know exactly where i'd be, but i feel like i'd be in a far better place mentally. i'd be able to move far away from the roots of some of my problems, afford to fund my art without having to balance an education and work alongside, and get far better healthcare and mental health treatment than what im on right now.

money wouldn't change everything, and i could list so many things that go completely against that first paragraph, but im going to choose to be optimistic. a better financial situation would lift so much weight off my head that the possibility that i could recover isn't out of the question. so probably not i guess? hard question.

 

[whiteupabove]

I have health problems that are bigger than money. With infinite money I might be able to resolve the health issues, but even then I'm doubtful.