Darkover
Angelic
- Jul 29, 2021
- 4,739
It can't be any other explanation. Why no matter how hard I try, no matter what I do I always get fucked over and screwed. This is all some kind of sick joke right? Some fucking nightmare that will never fucking end. Life gives you a tiny bit of hope, promises that if you work hard and struggle you will come out ahead.
But, that never works out. I have worked and suffered so much for so long. I worked shit jobs, lived in disgusting living conditions, tried to cope with my fucked up brain and chemical imbalances. But, fuck that. All that shit doesn't matter for shit. This isn't some kind of rpg where your hard work pays off.
This is just a black hole where everything you ever dream, wish and hope for just gets fucking sucked in and vanishes.
Everyday feels unbearable and unimportant. I have no motivation to do anything, severe anhedonia has kicked in so even things that were once fun like video games and watching horror movies can't keep my attention and feel like wastes of time.
we are currently in hell as long as we exist here on earth
But, that never works out. I have worked and suffered so much for so long. I worked shit jobs, lived in disgusting living conditions, tried to cope with my fucked up brain and chemical imbalances. But, fuck that. All that shit doesn't matter for shit. This isn't some kind of rpg where your hard work pays off.
This is just a black hole where everything you ever dream, wish and hope for just gets fucking sucked in and vanishes.
Everyday feels unbearable and unimportant. I have no motivation to do anything, severe anhedonia has kicked in so even things that were once fun like video games and watching horror movies can't keep my attention and feel like wastes of time.
we are currently in hell as long as we exist here on earth