HopefulSleep
Wants to sleep
- Apr 24, 2023
- 888
My initial plan was to not leave a goodbye letter but I came to the idea of writing that the reason for my suicide are people who sexually abused me in the hope of that they get some consequences for it.
The first thing I can think of is that this maybe has legal consequences, but does that count as proper evidence if I claim to ctb because of this?
I don't know much about the law but I think that this maybe counts as more evidence than just saying this.
One of the abusers texted me some weeks ago something like "the only reason I touched you against your consent was because you are a dumb loser and it makes fun to hurt you no one finds you attractive" but the problem is he did that with an alt account on discord and he probably isn't logged in in there so this could only be used as real evidence if it can get linked to him.
What can also happen is that my family will haunt him forever and maybe take revenge impulsively after I am dead, they would basically do my work then whcih would also be good but I don't know if they do it for me so I care about legal consequences.
My family thinks I am alright and don't understand me and are mentally abusive but I know my mother is traumatized from me nearly succeeding with ctb in the past so she will do something but probably tries to make legal action and my brother will probably rage and do something else with the abusers.
I don't want to revenge myself cause I would go to jail if I would do it in the way I think would fit and legally I am too ashamed of talking about it in real life what happened and in germany "minor" sexual assault doesn't count as a big crime so the worst that would happen to them is that they would have to pay some money or some bullshit, so I would like to know if they can get any consequences if I mention that it is their fault of me dying.
And also I thought that maybe this would reduce the consequences for me if I survive.
I think I won't survive but for the case maybe they will then put them in a psych ward except of torturing me in them or they don't put me in one but the abusers get in legal trouble but maybe I am just dumb and this makes no sense and it wouldn't decrease the punishment I would get for failing.
The first thing I can think of is that this maybe has legal consequences, but does that count as proper evidence if I claim to ctb because of this?
I don't know much about the law but I think that this maybe counts as more evidence than just saying this.
One of the abusers texted me some weeks ago something like "the only reason I touched you against your consent was because you are a dumb loser and it makes fun to hurt you no one finds you attractive" but the problem is he did that with an alt account on discord and he probably isn't logged in in there so this could only be used as real evidence if it can get linked to him.
What can also happen is that my family will haunt him forever and maybe take revenge impulsively after I am dead, they would basically do my work then whcih would also be good but I don't know if they do it for me so I care about legal consequences.
My family thinks I am alright and don't understand me and are mentally abusive but I know my mother is traumatized from me nearly succeeding with ctb in the past so she will do something but probably tries to make legal action and my brother will probably rage and do something else with the abusers.
I don't want to revenge myself cause I would go to jail if I would do it in the way I think would fit and legally I am too ashamed of talking about it in real life what happened and in germany "minor" sexual assault doesn't count as a big crime so the worst that would happen to them is that they would have to pay some money or some bullshit, so I would like to know if they can get any consequences if I mention that it is their fault of me dying.
And also I thought that maybe this would reduce the consequences for me if I survive.
I think I won't survive but for the case maybe they will then put them in a psych ward except of torturing me in them or they don't put me in one but the abusers get in legal trouble but maybe I am just dumb and this makes no sense and it wouldn't decrease the punishment I would get for failing.