I am trying to do my best here, I am trying to keep going but I am having a brutal time at it, so I want to have some education on method options so I don't feel so trapped.
Some info:
I am a wheelchair user who can sometimes walk. Low strength, cannot go far from where I live.
My car is broken down, I have no money for transport, and I cannot walk far without falling and getting stuck there, also my chair battery doesn't last long.
I don't have much money for supplies either, maybe $10. I don't expect to have any source of income, the system is screwed and I am unlucky enough to basically not have a way to get any money to live off of.
I am in immense pain from my disabilities and being unable to buy my meds and transport myself to PT.
My abuser wants me dead and I wasn't granted the order to protect me from him. He has conceal carry and wants to shoot me and make it a painful death, so I would rather not let him do the job. Also he doesn't deserve the satisfaction.
I have two dogs and I would like them to be safe from this so I can't do it in my dorm room. I also don't want to wait too long for scheduled texts to go out so that they can be found and cared for.
I would prefer the method to be less painful than an abusive man shooting me to death would be. He would do it in a sadistic manner, like everything else he does.
If anyone has any advice for how I can survive this situation and keep going, I am all ears. I basically am not safe from him when outside and I can't stay in my dorm forever. I'm tired of hiding and being in pain and I just want it to all stop one way or another.
Some info:
I am a wheelchair user who can sometimes walk. Low strength, cannot go far from where I live.
My car is broken down, I have no money for transport, and I cannot walk far without falling and getting stuck there, also my chair battery doesn't last long.
I don't have much money for supplies either, maybe $10. I don't expect to have any source of income, the system is screwed and I am unlucky enough to basically not have a way to get any money to live off of.
I am in immense pain from my disabilities and being unable to buy my meds and transport myself to PT.
My abuser wants me dead and I wasn't granted the order to protect me from him. He has conceal carry and wants to shoot me and make it a painful death, so I would rather not let him do the job. Also he doesn't deserve the satisfaction.
I have two dogs and I would like them to be safe from this so I can't do it in my dorm room. I also don't want to wait too long for scheduled texts to go out so that they can be found and cared for.
I would prefer the method to be less painful than an abusive man shooting me to death would be. He would do it in a sadistic manner, like everything else he does.
If anyone has any advice for how I can survive this situation and keep going, I am all ears. I basically am not safe from him when outside and I can't stay in my dorm forever. I'm tired of hiding and being in pain and I just want it to all stop one way or another.
