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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,160
If I had a magic wand to make anything happen... I'd choose to have an intravenous infusion of Nembutal. I have no more dreams... I just want to die...

Even if i have pleasure in life...not enought...
 
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SoLowHollow48

SoLowHollow48

Corporate Rat
Nov 24, 2025
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I thought that this would be a funny post.

Hmm... if I have a magic wand, I'd hope to just have a heart attack in my sleep and be gone forever. Nothing needed.
 
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hahahahhkjsk

hahahahhkjsk

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Apr 17, 2026
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if i had a magic wand, id first make sure that my loved ones could use it, to help themselves. if they need money, they will get money, but i wouldn't want them to use it irresponsibly. enough money for the situation but not to become a billionaire. moderate magic basically, help them without corrupting them.

and then once that's established, id first erase myself from everyone's memory, so there's no evidence of me ever existing. and then with a flick of a wrist, id make myself disappear, like i had never existed. nothing too fancy or dramatic
 
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Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,160
Je pensais que ce serait un post drĂ´le.

Hmm... si j'avais une baguette magique, j'aimerais bien faire une crise cardiaque pendant mon sommeil et disparaître à jamais. Plus besoin de rien.
EXACTLY SAME
 
SoLowHollow48

SoLowHollow48

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Nov 24, 2025
219
EXACTLY SAME
Bro I was like thinking and rethinking about your username and now that I know that you're French, I don't know whether to laugh or cry with you because with my limited understanding and vocabulary, it means to de-window, like extracting yourself from the window (jumping out of it)

lmaooo pardon me for my illiteracy in your language.
 
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purebliss

purebliss

"Just be happy" =)
Mar 3, 2026
257
I have to admit

If I had a magic wand I would just stop the feeling that makes me feel terrible.
I would rip out my psychotic brain and replace it in it's entirety.

Why die, when you can stop the suffering?
 
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hahahahhkjsk

hahahahhkjsk

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Apr 17, 2026
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I have to admit

If I had a magic wand I would just stop the feeling that makes me feel terrible.
I would rip out my psychotic brain and replace it in it's entirety.

Why die, when you can stop the suffering?
...
you make an amazing point. fuck. id just... delete this thing and live a normal life. true. right
 
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purebliss

purebliss

"Just be happy" =)
Mar 3, 2026
257
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you make an amazing point. fuck. id just... delete this thing and live a normal life. true. right
Exactly that :>

I don't necessarily want to die.
I need to die, because it is unbearable to be me.

If I can fully eradicate said need there no longer is a reason to go anymore :>
 
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Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,160
Bro I was like thinking and rethinking about your username and now that I know that you're French, I don't know whether to laugh or cry with you because with my limited understanding and vocabulary, it means to de-window, like extracting yourself from the window (jumping out of it)

lmaooo pardon me for my illiteracy in your language.
Yes im french...yes death by jump
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,059
I just wish and hope for the same, all I want is to cease existing peacefully and never suffer in this dreadful, cruel and torturous existence ever again, I just want peace from the torture of existing. I'll always see existence as the most terrible, dreadful mistake that just causes all this harm and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I always suffer so much from being so cruelly denied the option to painlessly cease existing, it's such a terrible crime to me how humans force others to suffer in this horrific world.
 
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Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,160
Je souhaite et j'espère simplement la même chose. Tout ce que je veux, c'est cesser d'exister paisiblement et ne plus jamais souffrir dans cette existence terrible, cruelle et torturante. Je veux juste la paix, la fin de ce supplice qu'est l'existence. Je verrai toujours l'existence comme la plus terrible des erreurs, la source de tant de mal et de souffrance, sans limite quant à l'intensité des tortures. Je souffre terriblement d'être si cruellement privé de la possibilité de mourir sans douleur. C'est un crime abominable, à mes yeux, que de voir comment les humains forcent les autres à souffrir dans ce monde horrible.
Yes its this...suffering
 
Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,160
Death in my sleep please
 

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